Crazy Stupid Love

chapter twenty one

Have you ever thaught what can be the worst feeling in the world? Failing an exam ? Getting aways from your parents? Loosing your job? No. The worst is uncertainty. When you are in the middle of nowhere , when people doesn't answer your questions , when the thought of loosing your best friend is killing you inside , when you get dizzy and your head start pounding because of the stress. These are the worst feelings in the world.
I took my phone and went to the yard. It's been a day since and doctors didn't have good news. Angi's doctor said that she is standing right before the line of life and death. If she passes the night , she can come back if she doesn't then she definitely will cross the line and we can do nothing except waiting.
How am I supposed to call her parents ? How should I tell them what just happened to their daughter ?
" Over thinking destroyed big men Ms Zeller" Said a husky voice behind me.
" Ms Zeller ?so the asshole is turning to a gentleman" I turned and faced Ayden.
" Just because Chelsea asked me."
He was holding two cups of coffee and he offered one to me.
" Thanks but I hate coffee." I said while surrounding the hot cup with my frozen fingers. The warmth of the cup felt so good under my fingers so I decided to take a sip and by my surprise it wasn't coffee it was Chailotte with caramel flavor. I looked up at him with surprised eyes.
"We use the same coffee shop in the university remember?"
"So you are spying on me?"
"Just when I need fun. "
" Oh yeah. Fun. I forgot that. People like you have fun with throwing other people's bra into the crowed."
"C'mon that was just a joke." He said with a smirk on his face. Asshole.
" Why are you doing this?"
" Doing what?"
" I don't know. Since yesterday you were my worst enemy in university now you come here with a cup of my favourite drink and acting nice." The conversation was kinda weird. It wasn't an argument neither a friendly chat.
"We all have our own reasons Rose. Remember that."
"So what is your reason?"
" There are things in the world that better stay in heart."
Heart. What a strange word.
" Keeping things in the heart is exactly what did this to her." I said in a low voice that was even unfamiliar to my own ears.
"Have you talked to the doctors recently? Didn't they say anything after I left?" I asked even though I knew the answer.
" Nah , not really."
I looked down again. No , no , no Rose. This is not the place for breaking down. Not infront of him.
"You better go home and take a shower. You look exusted."
"Nah , I'm fine. I can't leave Ruby alone."
"She is not alone. Chelsea is staying with her."
To be honest I was dying.
" I said I'm good."
" And I'm not listening to you. C'mon. You want it I know. I'll give you a ride."
"You wanna gimme a ride So you can steal more bras from my room."
"That's a good Idea . it's been a long time i didn't have fun" He winked. Ouch. I really was a bout to throw the drink on him when he started talking again.
" Ok , Ok. Sorry. Let's go."
" I said I'm not coming."
"Ok then, you left no more choices for me."
He suddenly turned and put me on his shoulder like I was just a sack of potato's.
" HEYYYYY.... PUT ME DOWN. NOW."
" Your voice is a little bit loud Rose you know that?"seriously???? He was carrying me on his shoulder and telling that my noise was loud? Asshole.
In the car I tried not tk pay attention to him neither to the streets till I realised we weren't going home.
"Where are we going?"
"My place. "
"WHAT??? " I used almost the most scary voice I had but I got no reaction from him.
"Stop the car " He kept driving.
" I said stop the car before I throw myself out."
"Hey , relax ok. I'm just helping."
"There is no way I come with you. Got it?"
"So what? You wanna get back home? Seriously?" The first thing that came to my mind was a yes but I suddenly remembered it. The blood in the bath tub.hell no.
He looked at me again but said nothing. He realised it I guess.
The rest of the drive passed in slinece till we got to his place. Well for a university student in our age it seemed like a mansion. It was a big house with white roof and a big parking area that 3 cars could easily fit in.
" You live here alone?" I said trying not to show emotions but he got it.
" Nah. Ash and Nash live with me too. Well Ash doesn't live with us properly but he has a room."
He looked at me and smirked." Surprised huh?" I really didn't know I was showing emotions.
"Nothing to be surprised." I said rolling my eyes.
He opened the door of the house letting me in.
" Come in"
" They are not home now?"
"I don't know but don't think so." Okay Rose. Why are you this stupid huh? Now you are alone with this asshole.
I was kinda happy they weren't home but it was scary too.
" So you wanna take a shower?" Taking a shower in his place? Hell no.
"Nah , I'm good."
" Sure?"
" Yeah."
He lead me to a room in second floor. It was a big one with a king size bed on it. The furniture was all brown , making the room look warmer.
" Is this your room?"
" Nah , it's the guest's"
So they have a guest room in their frat house????? Reach people.
"I will find you something to wear then you can sleep. I will take you to the hospital tomorrow."
"Ok"
Some minutes later I was in the bed with a striped pajama that more looked like my father's rolling from side to side , trying to sleep and I wasn't successful. Even though he was acting nice today I still didn't trust him so I locked the door before sleeping. The room had a big window that was showing the moon clearly. I rolled again. God. Sleeping in this situation is impossible so I just woke up and went out of the room. The house was dark and there was just a small light coming from the living room.
" can't sleep?" He suddenly started talking and scared the hell out of me.
"Jesus.You can see the back of your head?"
" Your perfume comes before you."
He turned and looked at me." Come here, take a sit."
I sat next to him. Leaving a little space between us.
He looked at me with curious eyes. " Everything's all right?"
" Yeah."
" Sure?" Seems like I'm not a good liar.
" No"
" What is it then? Tell me"
" I don't know. It's just.... umm"
"the image of her under all those shits comes to your mind huh?" I nodded with my head. I didn't want to make eye contact with him. How did he know?
"Lay down"
" What? "
"Lay down on the couch. I will tell you a story till you sleep." There was something in his voice , something like a pain. Something that made me do what he said.
" So how would you start? Once upon a time......"
It was pretty dark but I saw him laughing. A dark painful laugh.
"Yeah , Once upon a time there was a little boy living in a rich family. He was the only child with everyone's attention. His little heart was clean and bright. He learnt to play guitar when he was 17 but all the songs he used to play were sad. People used to asked him why is it but no one could get any answer. Of course they couldn't. They weren't in his life. After a year playing guitar turned to his life. He used to block every thing and everyone and ditch his friends just to find a quite place for playing. One day he got into a fight with his best friend so as always he took his guitar and drove to a far place to play. But that night wasn't like others. He saw a beautiful woman there. She was in her late forty or something with long golden hair. Those hair reminded him him of someone to he followed the woman but she wasn't the one he thaught.
After years the woman reminded him of the story. The One he was hiding for so long." He went silent after that.
"What was it?"
" When he was little once he came home from school calling for her mom. He searched every where but there was no sight of her. At the end he got tired so he went to the bathroom to wash his face but the door wasn't opening. There was something behind it. He kicked the door to open it and he faced his mom on the ground. Her beautiful golden hair was covered with red blood and..... "
Oh my god. His mom has committed suicide. I ..... I couldn't believe it. When he was talking, all the hate I had upon him was gone. The only thing that was in my mind was the image of a 14 year old boy calling his mom several times. Begging her to wake up.
"What happened at the end?" I was scared of the answer.
" I will tell you the rest tomorrow."
" I want it now."
He smiled but this time it was an innocent one. The smile of a 14 year old boy.
" I'm sorry Ayden. I didn't know. "
"Dont be , i didn't tell you this for that I just want you to know I understand." So this is your secret then. That's why you were so kind today.
" It's pretty late Rose. You should sleep."
" Don't ditch me. I want to know."
" You will know tomorrow."
" But...." before I could say anything els he lift me up and took me to my bed.
" Don't you ever dare to do that again." I shouted but he just laughed.
" I'm enjoying the view. "
" Asshole."
" Sleep well l Rosie." He whispered that to my ears and dropped me on the bed. Ouch.
I was about to shout again but he just diapered behind the door.
******
Hey guys :)
So what's up? Looong time no see. I know. Sorry for that. Hope you like the chapter. As always let me know what you think. Ily.