Buck's Diary

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by xxboredslxtxx

AN - It is 14 year old Buck's Diary.

Dear Diary,

I'm alone, my life is worthless and I don't think I can take it anymore. They scare me. I've locked myself in my room its the only place that I feel safe, but their loud, knocking on my door I think they might brake it, that can't happen or I won't be safe anywhere. I want to cry but if my dad hears me he'll beat me for not being 'manly enough'. I want to run away but they will find me, they always do, so instead i'll starve my self to death. They're still screaming, mostly saying i'm "useless, a waste of space" and that I was "a mistake". But could I argue. I was a mistake. I shouldn't be here anymore. I'm in constant pain and my arms are always bruised but I just cover them up and get on with my day. If this is my last diary entry then I just want to say, Maddie you were they one ray of joy in my never ending pit of sorrow and suffering, so thank you.

I hope I have a good next life if thats real,

Buck.

Buck in present day:

Small wet circles patterned my pillow case as my tears streamed down. This stupid book brought back so many memories, memories I worked so hard to forget.

But as I continue to stare down and the little dinosaur book I got for my 10th birthday I could see how far I've come since then. I have people that love me, Truly love me. I have people I can call a family and it's all thanks to Maddie. She gave me a second chance, a new beginning, a new life and a good on at that.