"are you sam hwang?"
"felix, how about you sit down first and-"
hyunjin said, walking towards felix and trying to hold his hand, but felix smacked at away.
"no. answer me. are you sam hwang?"
hyunjin looked down with a sigh.
he didn't want felix to find out this way.
he wanted to tell him, personally.
"this isn't the way I wanted you to find out..."
hyunjin started, looking at felix.
"but yes, I am Sam hwang."
felix didn't know what to do, or how to feel.
should he be mad at hyunjin for not telling him, or should he just let it go, because it wasn't his job or responsibility to tell felix?
hyunjin is sam hwang.
hyunjin. is. sam. hwang.
his favorite author.
hyunjin let him talk and talk about how much he loved sam hwangs books, just to find out that he was actually talking to the author himself.
"why...why didn't you tell me?"
felix asked, still lost of words.
hyunjin sighed, looking down.
"I don't know. I just...I was scared that if I told you, you would be with me just because I was your favorite author. I just....fuck I don't know."
he said, frustrated.
felix heart softened.
even tho he was still shocked and a little mad, he could see that hyunjin wasn't feeling right either, and that there was something more behind it.
"but I was talking about his books when we were dating too, why didn't you tell me then?"
felix asked.
"because I wasn't ready, okay?"
hyunjin sighed.
"I just...wasn't ready to tell you. I eventually wanted to, but in the right moment, not like this."
felix looked down.
he couldn't understand, because he didn't went trough something like this, but it surely must have been frustrating, and scary.
he sat down on the little couch, as he looked at hyunjin.
"I think it's the right moment now, don't you think?"
hyunjin smiled.
Felix didn't look mad, he wasn't yelling, he was actually willing to listen and understand.
"I love you so much, felix."
he said
"I didn't want to loose you, and I wasn't sure how to tell you this information. I was scared that if I told you, our relationship would change. I was scared you wouldn't see me as me anymore, but as sam hwang, as your favorite author, not for me."
felix gave him a small smile, before standing up and walking to hyunjin, taking his hand.
"i can't imagine how you felt, but it definitely must have been bad. I want you to know that even tho I know now, I don't see you as sam hwang, I see you as hwang hyunjin, the guy who I met in the coffee shop I work at, and the guy I fell in love with."
a tear fell from hyunjins eyes.
felix smiled, kissing the tear away.
"did you write the autograph in the book in the coffee shop?"
hyunjin chuckled, pulling felix in for a hug.
"I guess we will never find out."
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Fanfictionhyunjin is a poet by the day and a dancer by the night. he never revealed his face, because he wants people to read his poetry because it's good, not because the author is hot. felix is a causal guy working at a coffee shop, who has to deal with his...
