Room 21 - Calum Hood Punk -

This Isn't Goodbye

-Elena's POV -


We don't let go of each other. I don't want to let go, I don't want to lose him. "Elena..." Calum whispers. "What?" I mumble. 
"We need to say goodbye..." He says quietly.
"But-" He puts his finger on my lips, removing it and kissing my forehead. "O-okay..." I mutter sadly. "Do you want me to go first?" He asks. 
"Y-yes..." I nod, holding back tears.
(A/N: Cue sadness) 


"Elena, I love you so much. You're everything to me, and you always will be. I can still remember the first day I lay my eyes on you. You looked so beautiful and shy all at the same time when you walked into Room 21. Our relationship had a rocky start, because I was a big dickhead. But you always forgave me for everything I put you through, and I'll never be able to thank you enough. You're so strong, especially after what you've been through. It makes me admire you so much more. I'm always going to love you, Elena, always. There will never be anyone that is as special to me as you are. You're my life, and the one thing that made me happy here. I know you'll live an amazing life away from here, and I know that you'll be happy; you've got great people for that. I hope you remember me, because you're the one I'm in love with, that's never going to change... I can't believe we're saying goodbye..." I feel tears welling up in my eyes as he finishes. He takes my hands in his, smiling at me sadly. My go... 


"I don't want to say goodbye to you... I can't say goodbye to you... I've never been truly loved by anyone, other than my mum. When I lost her, I thought I'd never be happy again. But I met you and the guys, and everything changed. My viewpoint on the world, on life, changed... I love you more than you'll ever know. You showed me that I can be loved by someone, and that I can let myself be happy. You taught me that, Cal. You're so perfect, so amazing. I'm so in love with you, and it's crazy, because I've always been told that no one will ever love me and I won't ever love anyone... You opened my eyes, made me realize that I can love someone, trust someone. I'm glad you're the one I trusted, Cal, because I wouldn't want to trust anyone else. No one is ever going to replace you, you're too special. You're the one and only thing that I'll miss about this place. I'm not ending this on a goodbye, because I'm not able to do that... So, see you soon?" I whisper, tears sliding down my cheeks. Calum nods, tears welling up in his eyes. A sob escaped my lips and he pulled me into his chest. 


"I'm going to miss you so much!" I cry. 
"I'm going to miss you too!" He whispers, his voice cracking a little. When I pull away, I see he's crying too. "Come on, Elena, we need to go..." Ashton smiles sadly. I look at him and then at Calum. "Go, beautiful, you need to go..." He whispers. I nod sadly, walking over to the car that's waiting for us. "Take care of her, Ash! Promise me!" I hear Calum say. 
"I will, Calum, I promise you that!" Ashton replies. All of our luggage is put into the back of the car and I watch as all the boys climb in. Leia's driving us and she's spending the day with us to get things prepared with us. Something about making sure she knows we're going to be okay by ourselves? 


"Bye, Elena..." Calum says quietly. I turn around to look at him, seeing his sad eyes, sad smile. I run to him, throwing my arms around him. "I love you, Calum Hood, I always will." I say into his shirt. He wraps his arms around me, kissing my forehead. "I love you too, Elena, never forget it." He whispers. He pulls away and I instantly miss his touch. "Go on..." He gestures to the car. I turn around and walk over to the car, climbing in. "You'll see him again." Ashton says reassuringly. I know he's lying, but this time I just smile sadly and nod. Leia starts the engine and I roll the window down. She slowly starts pulling out of the drive. "I love you, Elena!" Calum calls out. 
"I love you too, Calum!" I call back. 


"I'll miss you!" He waves. 
"I'll miss you so much more," I wave too. "Th-this isn't goodbye! S-see you soon!" I add, my voice cracking as tears well up in my eyes. I can see Calum turn around and walk back inside, just as we're turning the corner. I close the window and sit back, crying. Ashton wraps his arms around me. "Don't cry, Elena, don't cry..." He soothes, rocking me back and forth.
"I'm gonna miss him s-so mu-uch!" I sob into his shirt.
"I know, I know..." He whispers sadly. I cry for a while, but no one in the car seems to mind. I soon feel my eyes growing heavy and I end up falling asleep...