Office Employee

Do You Want This? Do You Want Me?

Obito

A few days have passed and I still can't shake this uneasy feeling I have. I took off as well as gave Kakashi the day off. I wanted to get to the bottom of things and didn't think it appropriate to do it in the workplace. No one knows were officially together and the last thing I want is for them to find out during an argument.

This would be our first argument. I don't think it'll turn out that way I'm just confused. I don't know why he's acting this way.

I snapped out of my thoughts as the sound of my phone going off entered my ears. I looked down and saw it was my dad.

Dad: Just wanted to check in on you. I get the feeling something's wrong.

I don't know how he does it. Ever since we were little my fathers always knew when something was wrong with one of his kids and immediately stopped whatever he was doing to make sure we were ok. It didn't matter if he was cooking or if it was a business meeting.

Me: I would say I'm fine but I'd be lying

Dad: Do you want to talk about it

Me: Yeah but I don't know if you'll be of any help

Dad: Try me

Me: Have you or papa ever acted weird around each other

Dad: Weird how

Me: like you tense up whenever he hugs or kisses you. You say you want to be with him but your actions say otherwise

Dad: Personally no, your papa and I love being around each other even when one of us does something to irritate the other.

Me: I see

Dad: Are you in a new relationship

Me: Yeah. It kinda just started and I'm not sure if there should be problems this early on

Dad: No there shouldn't but with that being said every relationship is different in its own way but one of the things every relationship needs is communication. Whatevers going on you need to talk things through with them. It's the only way you'll get anything solved.

Me: Thanks dad

Dad: Any time love, I'm always here for you

I took in a deep breath and texted him.

Me: Can you meet me at the park later?

Boyfriend: Sure

I headed to the park early and waited for him. I knew it wasn't a good idea since my thoughts just kept on wondering to the what if's but I couldn't help it. I was scared. I was scared of the same thing happening again but in a different way. I didn't want Stone and Hibiki to be right about this as well even though I was afraid they were.

I tried my best not too look at them but I couldn't help but allow my eyes to wander over to all of the couples that were in the park. All of the couples that were holding hands, cuddling under a tree, or giving their partner a kiss on the cheek.

I wanted that. I wanted that to be Kakashi and I so badly but knew deep down there's a huge chance it would never happen.

Will anyone ever love me?

"Obito". I looked over and saw Kakashi standing next to me as I sat on a bench. I hadn't even noticed him until he spoke.

"Sorry, where you standing there long"? He shook his head and sat down.

"Just got here. You wanted to see me"? "I did".

I took in a big breath before giving him my attention once more. "I wanted to talk about us but didn't think the office would be an appropriate place for that". His eyes widened in shock. "W what about us? Did I do something wrong"?

"Be honest with me Kakashi. Do you want this? Do you want me"? He looked at me confused. "W what are you-". "Dont........don't you dare act as if you don't know what I'm talking about. You and I both know you're too smart for that". I wasn't looking at him right now. My head was turned forward with my hand clenched a little. There were a few on lookeers but they either muttered amongst themselves or walked off.

"Obito".

"Do you want to be with me or not"?

"What? Of course I do".

"Then why don't you act like it"!? He jumped a little. I didn't mean to raise my voice at him but there was no going back now. "Obito I-".

"You never act like you want to be around me! Your always flinching whenever I touch or kiss you! You act as if my touch repulses you and makes you uncomfortable! Are you scared I would have fired you if you had said no!? Is that it!? Do you think that little of me"!?

I was so mad in the moment that I wasn't able to see it at first. It wasn't until I heard him sniffling that I snapped out of it. I looked over to him and saw that he was shaking while hugging his knees. It was just us now, everyone had left.

"Kakashi".

"I I'm s sorry. Please don't hate me, please don't hate me". He was crying. "Hate you? No love, I just don't understand anything that's going on between us. You say one thing but act differently. I'm just confused is all. I'm sorry I yelled".

"D did you say love"? He looked up. "I did. I love you Kakashi which makes this even more confusing". "I I'm sorry. I just don't know if I can say it".

"You don't have to tell me your whole story right now just help me understand a little bit of what's going on. Please".

"I I love you too Obito, I really do. It's just I don't know what I'm doing". He whispered the last part while looking at me teary-eyed. "Someone hurt me in the past. I want to be with you. I want to be able to hug you, kiss you, and cuddle with you but I can't help it.

In Barcelona, I was so scared something was going to happen that I had to mentally calm myself down from having a panic attack and worrying you. I don't want to be this way around you. I can tell by looking into your eyes that your a good person but I just can't help it". He hid his face in his knees crying.

"Thank you for sharing that with me. How about going forward I ask for permission to touch or kiss you until your comfortable with it". "Y you still want me"? "Yes my love, we had a misunderstanding but eventually worked things through. I'm sorry again for yelling, something happened to me in the past but that doesn't give me the right to take it out on you.

In high school, there was this girl I liked. She was everything to me but when I asked her out to prom she humiliated me in front of the whole school. I'm sorry you went through what you did but from now on you'll have me here to protect you".

"C can you please hold me"? "Yes, my love". I took him into my arms and held him close until he stopped shaking.

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