Everlasting pain

2.

I scream for what feels like the hundredth time today slamming my fists down onto the table. We have a business meeting in a couple of days with big clients and my team are slacking on their duties. I need my papers printed where are my fucking papers, I need the staff room stocked and it's empty, I need my assistants to work faster. Why is everything going wrong

I start to get worked up and instantly call for the meeting to be dismissed. As everyone leaves Phoenix walks up to me with my Paci and a blanket, all my friends know I'm a little after I blurted it out in fit of depression to them while I was breaking down and they actually didn't care as much as I thought they would

Which is why having them all as personal assistants is actually great as they know when I'm about to slip or meetings are getting to much for me to handle

Anyway as I was saying I have a big meeting with another top company to merge our two companies together to be at the top of the chain due to the fact we both do similar things

Both own many hotels,restaurants and more around the city and more however my company has started to branch out into different countries but also have similar underground work hence the merging together

I take out my Paci and lean into Nix "What's wrong little one"
I sigh looking up at him "I'm just stressed and I miss my old life"

He feigns hurt along with the rest of my friends who make exaggerated hurt faces "What about us little Lo that cuts deep"
I giggle at all of them shaking my head at their behaviour
"No you sillies I love you guys and even have a better connection with my mother however they and you still kidnapped me and I miss my daddies and old friends and my sister" and by the time I end up finishing saying who I miss I'm a sobbing mess. You see this happens a lot I always end up having a mental breakdown at some point in the day without fail

He places my Paci back in my mouth and picks me up as we all walk out of the building and out to a nearby cafe. We all sit round the table and Nicky goes to order us some lunch

From the corner of my eyes I look to a table and my eyes widen in horror, it can't fucking be
The person makes eye contact with me as tears fall out of their eyes and I shake my head like nothing happened trying to ignore a burning gaze directed straight at me

Nicky walks back up to our table with a bunch of pastries and desserts, while we all talk about the upcoming meeting. The boys tend to stay in my meetings due to them being my assistants but also for my protection, I've been trained for a good four years and know how to protect myself however they like to be more safe then sorry

We all finish up and i turn back to the table at the back of the room hoping I was imagining things but when I see the same face staring back at me I rush all of us out of the cafe and to Phoenix's parked monster truck

We all hop in and we speed down the streets just talking about everything and nothing at the same time. I sigh into my arms for a 21 year old my life is boring the same repeated process.
Wake up, work, sleep and repeat my mother is bordering 50 and has a better social life than me

I get out of the car and walk into my home placing my bag by the door along with my shoes. "I'm home mother" I shout getting no response.Home alone again yay

I definitely shouldn't have sent the boys away. I walk up the stairs with a huff and throw my clothes off when I get to my door and place on a cute onesie with a Paci, i jump into my bed and place on some Netflix to watch some Tvd

After a while I start to get bored and bounce on the bed not knowing what to do with myself, I know that i should start filling out paperwork and working on expansions for abroad however I don't have the energy or strength to do so

I walk out running down the states and into the kitchen, I grab some chicken nuggets out of the freezer and throw them into the new air fryer putting them on for 20 minutes to be extra crispy

I go to talk to Alexa and ask her to play my list when I hear a rustle from outside in the bushes I'm not down to be fucking kidnapped so I grab my blue personalised gun nix got me for my 19th birthday and proceed to outside trying to be as quiet as I can

I stand in front of the bush I heard the noises from and take the safety of my gun making sure whoever's in the bush can hear me and know I'm not joking around

"Whoever's in there needs to get the fuck out or I will shoot your ass out" the bush starts to rustle louder and as I see someone jump out I place my gun on their forehead holding them

"Now who the fuck are you and why-" I stop myself short when I see his big brown eyes staring back at me "What the actual fuck"

"Fuck it's r-really you I missed you May-May"
I freeze at that name no one's called me in four years "I don't know who that is but my name is Elodie and you need to get out my house before I shoot you the fuck up" I scream

Leo looks shocked as tears leave his eyes and he shakes his head "May please it's me Leo we miss you c-"

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE AND DONT COME BACK OR I WILL FIND YOU AND SHOOT YOU MYSELF"

Leo runs out the gate I know he came through and as he leaves I feel myself sink into the wall of the bushes as I feel myself dry heave until eventually I start to throw up the little food I ate today. I didn't realise I missed them as much I did until he appeared

My eyes start to close but I feel to tired to even pick myself up off of the ground and I fall asleep in place next to my own fucking sick