Everlasting pain

35.

So I'm currently sitting in my bed and its never been more comfier I mean I have my daddies beside me and we're planning to get married tomorrow. Ha that was a joke If only

I think my lack of food water and a mix of all the drugs I've taken have severely messed up my brain... like severely

The only part of that story that was true was the bed part however it's not mine and I'm only here because I've been getting "too sick for my men to handle"

Like who even says that, so he called out his private doctor to come and look at me. I'm not going to lie it's been around a month and I'm still throwing up and getting migraines so I'm grateful for the checkup but I've never liked doctors

I'm sitting with Aleks with Andrei in the corner when the door to the bedroom knocks. He opens it with a fake smile "Doctor Mickelson I'll be outside"

He lets the doctor in and he walks over to me with a stethoscope around his neck. "So what seems to be the problem with you darling"
I almost snicker at his accent, it's a very strong British one something I'd imagine the king or queen to use

I quickly compose myself sitting up "Well I've just been getting migraines quite often and throwing up anything and everything at any chance I get"

He looks at me like he's already figured it out before bringing the stethoscope to my stomach feeling around in certain areas.

"Well I don't want to come across as strong but may I ask when was your last period"

My eyes widen "A-around two ish months ago"

"Well then if I'm correct you're around two or in the early three months of being pregnant I'm very happy for you congratulations"

My mouth drops open. I mean I should've noticed when I missed my first period but they've never been regular and i guess being caught up in all of this I've lost track of time

I grab ahold of the doctors arm "P-please I beg of you don't tell Adair. Please I'll do anything he c-cant know he'll h-hurt us both"

He gives a sharp nod of his head before going to the door. "Master Andrei, I've checked her stats and she is all fine she's caught a virus and is under a lot of stress from what I can tell. I've prescribed her these tablets she'll be fine in no time"

I sigh in relief when he doesn't tell. "Thank you Doctor you may leave now"

Doctor Mickelson leaves picking up his bags leaving me with just Andrei and Aleks. It's an awkward silence neither of us knowing what to say.

"I see my son has taken a liking to you" he calls motioning to the sleeping boy

I give a curt nod still not knowing what to say after the information I had just received, I hear him before I see him his large boots playing a part in that as he grabs me by the hair

"What have I fucking said about using your words, I've been going easy on you since I've noticed you're not well but if you want me to use you as my doll I can do that too"

I try to hold it in but end up loudly scoffing, my face whips to the side and I'm roughly dragged up by my hair startling Aleks awake. I turn back to him mouthing an I love you before letting my body be dragged after Andrei.

Yay my favourite place this lovely fucking room I've called home for around two long months. The basement.

"I've clearly been going to easy on you treating you as my guest rather than a pet. You'll now stay here, no food, no showers no civilisation"

I'm chucked back onto the hard bed my ankle chained back to the hard wooded floor and he storms out leaving me with nothing but my thoughts and a flickering dim light in the corner of the small room

Well this is just great. I was really enjoying my time with Aleksandr and I think he really liked spending time with me too. He was like the son I never had. And I don't think I ever will have one if I don't get out of this awful place

I mean I don't want to give birth here, I don't want to raise my child in this mafia life. I would rather be back with my father at least I could've stayed in my own place while being abused, but I killed him such a shame

I wonder how my daddies are. I mean it's been like two months maybe they've given up trying and have decided to find a new little. Maybe one that doesn't have being kidnapped as a hobby

The boys wouldn't give up on me though. Or I hope not I've helped them all through tough times I'd like to think that they'd help me out too. Maybe

I give in to my tiredness attempting to lay flat on this makeshift bed with my ankle being shackled to the floor. They gave me a makeshift blanket which feels like a loose piece of fabric

I close my eyes hoping that I'll someday be able to free myself and aleks from this cruel world