All The Things I've Never Said Before - Part 9

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What they don't tell you about birthdays is that when you turn a year older you are also the years that came before that one. For example when I turned twenty six I was also feeling twenty three and nineteen and eleven and one. You expect to wake up and feel the new age on your birthday but the truth is you don't. You see when you open your eyes you have this expectation to have everything feel different, but it doesn't everything is exactly like how it was yesterday and the day before that. I still feel like I'm twenty three and I am underneath the year that also makes me twenty six. One day I might say something stupid and I know I will but that is also the part of me that still sees myself as nineteen. And even on someday's I don't trust myself and I know that could be the part of me that's twenty. And for no absolute reason I need to cry like a baby and that is the part of me that feels one. You see as we get older and grow older and I know I've mentioned this before in my past books, life is like an onion each with its own layer, our years are a lot like that too. Each year becomes the next one and our birthdays are thankfully just a little reminder to help us celebrate all the years that came before and just as warm and welcoming as the next to come