All The Things I've Never Said Before - Part 9

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This is why love is a choice. What I mean by this is, it's probably very easy to be in love on your wedding day, it's probably even easy to be in love on your first date. It's probably the easiest to be in love when you are lying in bed next to your partner. The comfort, the joy, the warmth, the security and the trust and the fun and the peace that this person brings you is because it feels warm, it feels positive and it's a comfort it feels like a shared moment of what this person brings you. It's a life you both are experiencing on some real visceral beauty. And then it drops. It's not so easy to be in love anymore when that partner's parent is dying of cancer, or someone has just been laid off from their job and they are now unemployed and they soon run out of money. Or maybe someone is suffering from a mental health crisis and they're just not being very nice to you. You start to realize that It's not so easy to be in love anymore, at least in these environments. So I guess what I'm saying is "love is a choice". I like to think and believe that it's more of a promise to someone to maintain that you will love them even on the days when you think that they don't. It's feeling like you don't want to be around them or their company. I think that's maybe the more mature way of understanding what love actually is. And that love that's the love I want to attain because I think if you rely on the former thought of what love is meaning only being there when its easy or when it's feeling comforting or it "feels" like love I don't actually know how sustainable that "love" is