All The Things I've Never Said Before - Part 9

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Man, I have not been happy lately. I won't talk about it but I spent the last four to five days just being very depressed. I can't work or even think straight and I'm not saying this for attention I've simply just got really tired of what I see on Instagram. I feel like no one is genuine anymore and it seems like everyone on there is just so happy, they are out there traveling and having fun and everyday for me is just a montage of bikinis, tans, margaritas and I think to myself man maybe they are that happy. But I also think we all have those highs and we all have those lows but everyone is always always posting on those highs that they are having. And I'm guilty of that too I'm not saying I'm not I very much am, but I also have noticed very few people talk about what happens when the highs start to wear off, we end up hitting a huge valley and we start to go down and when we go down we all get quiet at least I do. And that right there is what I want to talk about. That's why I'm writing this. It's not for the fucking attention I dn't need pity I'm know I'm going to be okay I know that but the more time I spend on instagram the more I see these. Everyone is way way the fuck up here and for me it gets so so hard not to compare sometimes. I'm happy on the path I chose and where I am but man there are some really really deep valleys I have to come across and I just want to express and acknowledge that to you. So if you are not anywhere you want to be right now in life, being on instagram is definitely not going to help you. I don't think a lot of these people that we see have everything all figured out. I'm not sure if people ever really figure everything out so relax, take a breath, get off your phone. You are doing okay I promise