Stucky smut +18 Oneshots

chp 1. Pleaseplease~ {SMUT}

Bucky jumped awake, trails of small beads of sweat drips down the back of bucky's neck and down his chest. His body was clammy and sweaty, heat was swarming him, making him feel like he was a heater. He hated being so hot, he really did, it bothered him. He liked to be semi cold and semi warm, just right in the middle. He looked around, flashbacks of his nightmare running through his mind like a marathon. He didn't want to ever dream of it again, it was so horrible that that was the only thing on his mind at the moment. He body shook with fear, scared to be back in that cold metaled chair. His hands shook. He looked down at his metal arm and just had an urge to rip it off and call it a day, but he couldn't, it was attached to him and that was that.

He hated the star on his arm, the star that represented HYDRA. He always have hated it, he really does and one time Steve was so kind that he actually painted over the star, painting his whole arm and bucky still remembers looking in the mirror at it, and was just in amazement, it was truly beautiful. His arm was covered in flowers and amazing colors. He loved it so much, that day was a day he'll always remember. He looked down at his hands, his chest was heaving and it was getting hard for him to breathe, very hard.

He took a deep breath in, trying to calm his breathing down but it only made him feel slightly dizzy in a way. He looked up at his door, it was open but not all the way, just halfway, just in case. He liked it open because it made him feel safe, safe for if he started screaming in his sleep, Steve would come in and help him. He always felt grateful for when Steve did that, he was very happy for it. Steve was bucky's everything, his heart. Bucky could not live without him, he wouldn't even see the point in living if Steve was gone.

Bucky's chest was now heaving worse than it was, going up and down fast and heavy. It was scaring him. His eyes were wide, like he was a deer on the road when a car was coming at them full speed. He squeezed his eyes shut, trying his best to stay calm but he couldn't, it was getting worse by the second. He opened his eyes quickly and stared at his door, wanting to get up and get Steve. He did this most nights if he was having a problem breathing because of a panic attack. Not just for panic attacks but for nightmares. Bucky's eyes widened when he heard the sound of footsteps coming towards his room. He was so scared that he actually backed up in the bed, scooting as much as he could away from the door and his back soon hit the head board of the bed.

He looked at the door and he whimpered and started to pull the blankets over him and just below his chin. He was still hot but he was basically forgetting it because as he heard the footsteps getting closer, he felt like he was back at HYDRA. His mind was screaming at him to run out of the room, to hide away in the shadows so no one could get him, but he couldn't, he was too frightened too. He pulled his legs to his chest then rested his chin on his knees as he saw the person stand in his doorway.

His eyes widened and he sucked in a breath and tried to not make a sound, to not draw attention. He closed his eyes and lowered his head so that he wasn't as noticeable, but to bucky's luck, he was. The person approached him slowly, carefully. His footsteps were quiet but bucky could hear them loud and clear due to the super soldier serum. Bucky couldn't hold his breath any longer and started heaving once again. It was so clear to hear. The person came closer and soon sat on the bed next to bucky. Bucky whimpered and tried to scoot back more, if that was even possible.

He didn't lift his head or anything, he kept his head down like a lost puppy. "Bucky" Steve said, his voice calm and low, it wasn't too loud to scare bucky, but it did slightly. He made a noise, like a little moan that showed Steve that he was scared and it told him also that bucky most likely had a nightmare. Steve felt his heart beat increase, sad for his best friend that sat in front of him torrified. He couldn't see his face, but he wanted too. "Bucky, look at me" Steve said. Bucky heard him but didn't listen, he didn't listen because he was just scared that if he looked up at Steve, it would be some HYDRA agent.