Stucky smut +18 Oneshots

chp 3. Ed {Sweetness}

A tiny bit of self harm but hardly any. Eating disorder is in this chapter.

Bucky sat at the dinner table as he ate alone, eating breakfast and man it was so good, it made bucky's taste buds water like crazy. He ate his usual cereal, the only thing that never messed his stomach up in the morning which in the morning, his stomach was always sensitive, so he always ate things that would be easy on it. Cereal always seemed to do the trick, it was always the thing that would never make him feel like he had to run to the bathroom and puke up all his food. Steve was with Tony since they were talking about some mission they were going to be going on in the next few months.

Tony wanted to just let Steve know so he was prepared. He ate in silence, enjoying the steady silence of the room as he filled his stomach up. He looked up when he heard the door knob twist to the front door. He watched as it opened slowly, hearing people talk, but he knew who they were, so he didn't really care and just looked back down and continued eating.

Steve and Tony came back in talking back and forth to each other, sometimes laughing. Bucky loved when Steve laughed, it made his mood so much better than it already was. Bucky shook his head, a little smirk forming on his face listening to Steve giggles. Tony and him walked in the door and closed it behind them. Tony and bucky were, well let's just say on the okay side with each other, they didn't really like each other but they did respect each other, even though Tony knows what bucky did to his parents, he slightly forgives him.

"Hey buck" Steve said, looking at bucky as he hung his keys on the key rack on the wall next to the front door. Bucky looked up and gave him a small but sad looking smile. Bucky never really knew how to show his emotions, it was hard at times and he felt like today he felt more run down than anything, like he was just more closed in.

"Hey Steven" bucky said, giving him a bigger smile now knowing that Steve hated when bucky called him that. He giggled slightly. Steve scoffed and rolled his eyes playfully and went over to bucky. "I told you to stop calling me that" Steve said, giving him a smile and walking over to the fridge and pulling at a water bottle. Bucky looked up at Tony who was looking at him with this look of annoyance. Bucky gave him a smile, even though Tony didn't, trying to show Tony that he was a good person and not the person he was a while ago.

Steve opened the water and chugged it down quickly and wiped his mouth then crushed the bottle then threw it away in the trash that was next to the fridge. "You know buckster, if you keep eating that cereal every morning it'll only put more weight on you, just sayin' Tony said, in a cocky tone. Right then, the room went silent. Bucky just stared at Tony and felt Steve go to his side, but Steve was silent for only just a moment, a single second and then he lashed out at him, making bucky jump a little. "WHAT THE HELL TONY, LEAVE HIM ALONE" Steve yelled.

Bucky looked down and was ashamed of himself, feeling like Tony was right, he was already heavy right? He didn't need to eat. Tony put his hands up in the air a little. "Whoa captain, just sayin-" Tony couldn't even speak his last sentence with Steve rushing over to the front door, opening it and pushing Tony out it. Bucky just sat there feeling really grossed out with himself and let his mind race. He was ugly, gross, horrible, a monster, etc. He felt like he had the need to throw up.

Tony and Steve argued a bit more out the door and then Steve came in, closing the door on Tony. Steve stopped for a moment but then walked over to the sad bucky that sat in his chair. "Bucky" Steve said coming up to him slowly, knowing how hurt bucky was, he could see it in his eyes. Bucky looked up at Steve and then pushed his bowl away instantly. "I'm not hungry" bucky said, standing up from his seat and then walking past Steve.

He walked down the hallway that led to his and Steve bedroom and bathroom. He walked to the bathroom quickly, his stomach becoming upset. He made it there fast, opening and closing the door then bending over the toilet, getting on his knees and he threw up instantly. It was like every time he would get nervous he would feel sick, and he absolutely hated it more than anything. Steve knew bucky could get sick easily when it came to being scared or nervous, it made him feel awfully bad for him.