A Writer's Block

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Let me indulge in my pretentious sounding words for a moment, but this is like my genuine thoughts.

Okay, so I opened Katawa Shoujo earlier today before going to preparing for school, because I wanted to read stuff lately. I have a lot I should start and finish, but I thought this was the best.

So it just so happens that the route I was going for, I happen to stumble upon it, being Rin's route.

Before today, I do enjoy her company alot, she has said many things that caught my interest, though I have to admit I forgot her exact words, but how the details and how they made me feel, I still can recall. But I may have a screenshot or two, and I should've chronicled it earlier so I can come back to it.

Today however, I am more drawn to the game than ever before.

"Why does art exist?"

"What makes an artist?"

"If I can pour water in a box and call that 'art', is that really art?"

There are many things that have struck me in this game lately. And as someone who calls herself an "artist" despite her own mediocrities, this route was truly tailor made for me, I can't wait to see how it unfolds as the pacing is really good to read through the story.

Rin is quite the peculiar girl, and her thoughts contrast with that of Hisao, the main character. Rin's mind was more abstract and loose, being an artist, while Hisao was more grounded and looked for the more logical side of things.

From Hisao's perspective Rin is confusing to him, but for me, I see a shard of a mirror of myself placed in front of me when talking to her. I am quieter than her because I sometimes don't know what to say. But just like her, in a way that she sounds like she doesn't have anything to say, when in reality her mind just wanders faster than her mouth could utter words.

Rin also deals with uncertainty, as the mind of an artist is a fickle one, after all. That she not only deals with the uncertainty of her works and decisions, but her own identity, she is also not sure of.

The talks about art in this route with the teacher, and how in itself exists because of itself, and how it ties into Rin. How art is seen as a piece of her that she can return once she becomes so much more different than who she was before.

My only nitpick is Hisao himself, because he is not me, as even I have clashing beliefs with this man in terms of Rin.

There are probably something I have left out because of forgetting it, I feel like in my subconscious there is a lingering feeling that I may have been forgetting something after all.
And even though I feel like I have only scratched the surface, the story is like I am unveiling so many new things at the right pace. Not too slow to bore me and put me to sleep, yet not too fast to overwhelm me with exposition dumps. It's perfect, and it has just scratched an itch that I cannot reach. I cannot wait to read more and delve deeper into the minds of this character's mind and heart.