Why can't just people understand me? I try so hard to change myself and improve yet why do I feel like it's never enough? No matter what I'll do I'll just be abandoned, ignored or disregarded.
Ngl, sometimes I feel like my parents, especially my dad just see me as an obligation, and not as a person. Maybe that's what people say when they talk to me? Maybe even my ex too? But like why am I such a horrible human being? Why can't I just be normal, and why can't I just be good like I was back then? I wish I wasn't so overemotional all the god damn time. And I wish I had someone who would listen to or have at least something who could be an outlet for my emotions, and not just a means of escape. Because I am for sure that even my delulu ass think that the characters I love would so not fall in love with me. Why do I hate myself so much? What did I even do to hate myself more than I do other people? Why am I such a pushover? And why don't I get the emotional support, or the comfort that I need. Why doesn't anyone want to listen to me? And they expect me to listen when I have so much to say but I can't even speak or spill it out of fear that no one cares. My sincerity is always really put to the test. I hate this so much. There's literally many people who are suffering and yet I'm so weak crying about things right now. Holy shit even this I can't even. I can't... I hate myself so much. And I'm just whining because my father ignored me. Why am I so stupid and so sensitive? I hate this I hate this I hate this. Why can't I just have someone who understand me? Whyyy??? Why do I have to be so awful??
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A Writer's Block
RandomThis is where I rant because I don't want to bother people. They'll just tell me things that will worsen my thoughts on myself. I'm tired of people offering comfort, only to shit on you when you ask for it, and that is what became of this book. Mf r...
