Can my mom just stop? Why do I read that she's just manipulating my emotional state? I already feel fucking worthless, why does she have to add that? It's always "stop it", "you're always like this", when it comes to my anxiety. But how can I even stop it? Like shouldn't the first thing be is to help me at least get some assurance? Like you're a psychologist. I'm kind of jealous that the kids who are your clients get more emotional support from you, than what you give me. I guess and then she's gonna manipulate my feeling later, by feeling guilty for getting mad at her. I don't think I was mad, I'm just really on the brink of tired-ness. I should've been doing some research and stuff instead of just being so fucking annoying though. It seems like she even says she's the one who is irritated to get on my nerves. Sometimes I really do wonder if she genuinely loves me. Because it feels like it's just some transactional relationship, it feels like she really would rather get her point across than listen to ours. I guess... If I probably am just as sad and lonely as she was back then when she was my age, I kinda wonder if I will just be like her when I grow older.
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A Writer's Block
RandomThis is where I rant because I don't want to bother people. They'll just tell me things that will worsen my thoughts on myself. I'm tired of people offering comfort, only to shit on you when you ask for it, and that is what became of this book. Mf r...
