(This rant may contain mentions of TW topics)
This Wattpad acc is just me getting pissed about my parents and ranting about them, no wonder I let myself get groomed or attract the attention of older men in my teenage years. They're so emotionally toxic. My father never taught me about privacy, and to respect myself. My mom taught me how to hide and cower in fear of getting my art or anything I do judge because of people's personal bias. Gee, I wonder why I'm such a people pleaser. Gee, I wonder why I don't have any self-respect. I wonder why I have to hide and think of the worst possible situation. I wonder why I have an aversion to expressing myself, and I wonder why I couldn't express myself well. It's all their fault, and they want me to connect to them, when I cannot psychologically do so. AND THEY BLAME IT ON ME WHEN I LITERALLY HATE MYSELF, BECAUSE IM SUCH A HORRIBLE PERSON FOR HATING THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE. I HATE THIS. I HATE THIS I HATE THIS. I HATE THAT I HAVE TO BE THE ONE WHO GETS TO FIX MY TRAUMA WITH EMOTIONAL NEGLECT AND THE TOLL OF HAVING CONTROLLING PARENTS, AND I AM THE ONE GETTING REPRIMANDED. I FUCKING HATE THIS. IF THEY HAD THIS ATTITUDE AND THEY WERE RICH, I'D BE FINE BECAUSE I GET TO DO THE THINGS I LOVE, BUT DAMN IT. WHY DO THEY HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS TOWARDS THEIR MENTALLY UNSTABLE DAUGHTER.
yEAH I bet Jesus will punish me for being grateful. Let me guess, one day I will lose my parents at a time that I'm still financially dependent on them? Damn it.....
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A Writer's Block
RandomThis is where I rant because I don't want to bother people. They'll just tell me things that will worsen my thoughts on myself. I'm tired of people offering comfort, only to shit on you when you ask for it, and that is what became of this book. Mf r...
