Pretty Hurts - Erik KIllmonger x reader

Chapter 19

A/n: Hey yall!!! I just wanted to put a disclaimer right quick. There will be hella time jumps this chapter but it is for GOOD REASON Trust also there is a dream sequence I will mark those tho. We also have a lil Xhosa in this bihhh translation will be included aswell. Time jumps are ***** Dream Sequences are ###### and Translations are in parentheses ( Xhosa to english) so now thats outta the way HAPPY READING!!!!

TRIGGER WARNING: This chapter does talk about death/ fetus death/ gore/ smoking etc. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

ERIK'S POV: The day of his confession

I stroked her face one last time and before I realized what I was even doing...I heard myself faintly murmur the words..

"Fuck, I think I love you"

Her eyes were still closed and for the first time since I was a boy, I felt scared shitless. I mean this girl fuckin hates me and I don't blame her. And now I just told her I loved her....DICK MOVE.

I can't deal with this sappy bullshit right now especially, I gotta walk away.

I walked into the lab where Tiago was working.

"Ayo E, I gotta hit for you. Well a few actually...if you really wanna find this walking vibranium nigga then you needa start like yesterday."

I already know the drill so I walk to the vault to gear up.

"Ight send me the files and give me the rundown. How long am I diving in and what kinda manpower am I looking at?" I suit up and put on my gear as I walk around and start loading up my tactical bags.

Tiago spins around in his chair and walks over to the vault "SEE that's the thing. We in foreign territory ma nigga so Ion know how long or how much manpower we lookin at. This is a very dangerous assignment and just know...Erik when you do this there ain't no going back" he put his hand on my shoulder and handed me the hard drive with all the necessary information.

"T, I know what I'm doing, but while I'm gone, just...just make sure my girl is taken care of. And if Linda tries anything with her. I don't give a fuck what she is good for. Kill her....I aint playin wit her no more man."

Tiago frowned and nodded. I know he doesn't like killing people but he does what is necessary when he has too.

"Say man, I know it's not really my place but...how long you gon keep that girl here? She is in real bad shape man. I'm saying this cuz I know you care about her. She won't make it much longer if shit keeps going down the way it has been for her."

I clenched my fists and took a deep breath. What the fuck does this nigga know? I asked him to watch her while I am gone, not give me a mothafuckin play by play of her life and how it's going. I know that shit better than anyone.....probably even herself.

"What exactly is you tryna say Tiago? Cause it sounds like you think you know better than I do. EXPLAIN IT TO ME THEN NIGGA! THE FLOOR IS YOURS!"

Tiago backed up real quick, as he should. He a clown ass nigga but he aint stupid.

"E, I am saying this as your best friend, your brother! You need to make a fuckin decision! Either we keep her here and stop treating her like a damn inmate or we let her go and risk her blowing up our spot.......and you already know how thats gon go. I know that we are in a line of business that makes us have to do fucked up shit, but that dont mean that we have to go around being fucked up people! Kill me for saying this or do what you gotta do! But you know damn well that this is wrong, we both know what it's like losing our family!" He pushed me and started screaming louder.