Pretty Hurts - Erik KIllmonger x reader

Chapter 25

I never gave much thought to my future. I mean sure I dreamed and had goals, but I never really thought about what happens after I accomplish them. I guess I had spent so much time worrying about reaching those goals that I never once thought about what I would do once I reached a certain point in my life.

So much has happened...so many things have changed me. Im in love, Im gonna be your mother. Erik is gonna be your father. I hope that I can give you a better life than your father and I had growing up. I want you to feel all the love and happiness in the world. My little bean... my baby. You're not even here yet and I already feel so protective of you. Your father already loves you very much.

I know you won't be able to read when you are born or maybe you will. Maybe you will be some type of genius...like einstein or something. Either way I know you will be perfect my love. Before I knew I was pregnant with you I went through allot of hardships. Grief, pain, anxiety, depression.... you name it! I was so mad at the world for everything that had happened to me, and I was trying to figure out what I had done so wrong for the world to let such horrible things happen to me. But I am finally starting to realize that without all the hurt and pain I would have never made my way to your father. And we would have never made you. Our biggest miracle, blessing and accomplishment. Even your uncle T is excited to meet you. His dumbass even tried to name you Diamond. Absolutely NOT!!

I just want you to know that no matter what your family....Our family loves you so much it hurts. Your Grandparents would have been so happy to meet you, it was actually your Pop Pop that told me I was carrying you. He said that you would have his eyes. It's hard to explain but you will learn when you get much much older. So I guess this is it. You and me kid.. were a 5eva thang beanie.

Loving and waiting for you,

Mama

I heard distant shuffling in the background of the plane as I saw Erik waking up from his nap. I still feel pretty weak after yesterday's incident. That's what I'm calling it, an incident. I know I should feel happy but I cant help but feeling guilty for what I did to Linda and Klaue. Yea they deserved it, but they were people too. I'm sure they have family, friends or someone who will miss them. I took them from someone just like my parents were taken from me....

"Hey baby you ready? We land in 30 minutes."

I looked at him and I saw that he was on guard and cold. I thought this was supposed to be our home? Shouldn't he be excited to meet his family?

Maybe it's the hormones but something doesn't seem right.

"Uh yea, just let me put this in my bag" I held up the folded letter. He looked at me quizzically. "What's that?" He said grabbing it from me. I watched him open the letter and read it carefully. His eyes scanned over my words as I watched a faint smile form on his face.

"This is beautiful Y/n..." he bent down and pecked my lips. "That's why it makes it so much harder to do what I am about to right now..."

"Wha- what do you mean?!" I felt panic rise in my chest as his words fully sunk in. What was he gonna do? Was he gonna leave us? I don't think I can handle anything else going left...

He knelt down in front of me and pulled a small case with a syringe and a purple vial of mysterious liquid in it. "Y/n this where shit is about to get real. This is a sedative. It's 100% safe for you and the baby. Tiago had it made before we left."

"A SEDATIVE!?!? WHAT THE FUCK DO I NEED A SEDATIVE FOR?!?! Erik don't you get tired of me screaming at you? I know I am SICK! SICK! SICK! of your shit! I am sick and tired!"