Tacoma Falls: Home and Heart

Finding a home

Shepherd

I drove to Maury's house and pounded on his front door like a man dying of thirst. When Maury opened his door, I didn't hesitate to crash my lips into his.

Maury gently pushed on my chest to break free from the kiss. "Uh, Shepherd, what are you doing?"

"What does it look like I'm doing? Kissing you."

Maury stepped back and shoved his hands into his trouser pockets. "I know that. Why?"

I stepped inside and closed the door behind me. "Maury, I've been a downright fool with you. I let my pa control me even in death."

Maury arched his brow. "Huh?"

My mind was a jumbled mess. "I hid my sexuality because of my pa. I even used Cassie to keep my pa from finding out. That didn't go well when she questioned working with smelly cows. Cows are smelly. What did she expect from livestock?" I rambled incoherent thoughts to Maury.

Maury stood there and listened to me ramble.

I started pacing, trying to understand what I wanted to say. "Sneaking out had stopped working. So I told Cassie that Waylon had a thing for her. She bought it, then opened her big mouth. I had to pick the dumbest brick in the pile to help me. At least Dixie faked it with Beau in her fancy cowboy getup. But then again, Dixie isn't too bright. Bad example."

"Shep, I don't understand." Maury shook his head in confusion.

I whirled around to Maury. "Don't you see? I don't need to hide anymore. Way and Beau know I'm gay, and they accept it. I don't have to worry about my pa. He's dead."

Maury looked at me like I had lost my mind.

"Shit. I'm not making any damn sense." I shook my head with my hands on my waist. "This sounded much better in my head. But then again, I've screwed things up between us constantly. That's my punishment, isn't it?" I bobbed my head, knowing I was saying everything wrong.

"Was is it that you want, Shep?"

"I'm searching for a home."

Maury knitted his brows.

"I want a home." I wiped my nose, trying not to cry. "But my home doesn't want me. Isn't that the all get out? Sorry, I crashed in here like a raging bull. I'll leave you alone." I started for the door so I could salvage what little pride I had left. It wasn't much, but it was enough to keep me going.

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Maury

I listened to Shep's ramblings until he hit me with the home statement. I tried so hard not to fall for Shepherd Shaw after what happened. I figured he made his choice, and I wasn't it. But now, I didn't want him to leave.

I stopped Shep before he walked out that door, pushed him against the door, and crashed my lips into his. Our kisses grew hungrier as we tore at each other's clothes. We didn't even reach the bedroom but used the couch instead. It was better than a hard floor.

Luckily, I had stuff in the end table drawer from the other times we had sex. I prepped Shep before easing my cock into his hole. I always took great care with him when we were intimate.

I pushed myself all the way in until I bottomed out. I blew air past my lips at the relief of all this pent-up sexual energy. I waited until Shep gave me the nod and moved slowly inside him. Our lips connected as I rolled my hips slowly and achingly.

"Faster," Shep said against my lips.

I picked up the pace and slammed my hips against his until I pounded into him like a wild animal. I became rapid with each thrust until Shep clamped down around me. I filled him to the brim while he shot ropes onto his chest.