Draya.
Three hours prior...
"Uuggghhhhh."
"Dray, chill. Your mucus plug came out yesterday, and if he's ready to come, he'll come."
I wanted to believe it, I really did. But this boy was wreaking havoc on my internal organs. The nonstop kicking, bladder pushing, it just didn't stop.
I saw Dr. Carr yesterday, on the 17th. The baby dropped lower into my pelvis and I never thought I'd see the day where I could freaking breathe again.
My cervix had dilated a centimeter, but she allowed me to go home.
I hadn't been in the house twenty minutes and felt like I was pissing myself. Low and behold, my freaking water broke. I didn't start flipping shit until about now.
Three hours later...
The contractions were lengthier and stronger. I swore to myself that I wasn't having anymore kids. That's how bad they were.
I've been in this hospital since earlier and have been doing walks to maybe, hopefully dilate some more. I can't take the pressure anymore.
Brook, Malanii, and Reno switch off every fifteen to twenty minutes or so. I know I've been giving them hell and eventually I'll make it up to them. But they're getting Satan right now.
I was currently walking with Brook.
"When was your last–" I cut her off when another one tore through my lower half. She started rubbing my back and giving me words of encouragement.
I wiped the straggling tears that fell.
I thought they said this was beautiful?
Then something crossed my mind.
"Have you talked to August?" She looked at me with a face like you haven't? "So no?" She shook her head.
This was where his promise would come into play. He promised me that he'd be here for me no matter what.
I understand that we broke up, but does that automatically mean that the promise died with it?
When another contraction hit, Brook decided it was time that I went to sit down. She guided me back to my room and helped me back into the bed. I closed my eyes but couldn't sleep.
Dr. Carr came in and did a pelvic exam, and I was almost ready to push. Almost.
I laughed when Reno threw a fit about when Lanii gave birth and her cervix opened the way it did. It was the most I laughed all day.
Hours later, we were joined by Mama Sheila and Ashley. Seeing how there were now three people who know what giving birth feels like, they broke off into their own little world of birthing stories. I didn't wanna hear it, yet I was the one about to give birth. So Brook, Reno, and I started talking amongst ourselves.
Just as our conversation got juicy, shit got real as hell.
I was hot and sweaty and on the verge of breaking Reno's hand. My contractions were mild and killing me. I couldn't deal.
Mama Sheila called August multiple times and he wouldn't answer.
I was devastated.
I didn't care that we weren't on terms, I wanted him here. I wanted him to experience this with me since he kept saying that this was his son throughout my entire pregnancy.
The more fucked up part about it is, Torian manned up over the last two weeks and is actually signing the birth certificate.
August doubted that he would, and he won't even be here to witness it.
