Was he ever Mine? (Completed)

the end or the start?

I sat near him and gave him the water
"Now tell me what happened?"
"Nothing.."
"First really u think this is the right time to answer like this?"
How could he lie to me straight on my face after scaring the shit out of me
"Khao..let's act like this never happened"
He said that and got up from his seat
I pulled him making him sit on his seat again but this time I was sitting down putting my hands on his lap
"Fir..what happened?" This time my voice was soft...soft enough to melt him
His eyes were filled with tears with my one question and the tears felt like someone just stabbed a knife inside my chest and removed it
"You know I'm here for you right?"
"Why? Why are u here huh? Just leave because one day u will leave because you will get bored disappointed or find someone new and all that will be left is me behind trying to figure out where did I go wrong"
I knew where this was going
First was always a sunshine but a different one he barely made close friends he talked to people but no one was really close to him
"I'm not leaving u" I said with all my concious
I knew my words and I mean it i would rather die than leave a person like first behind
"That's what everyone says but they eventually does khao you will too i know I'm not fun person to be with but do I not deserve someone just for me who is just mine I don't wanna share what's mine khao"
"I'm yours"
I was fully aware what I was saying this time I didn't cared if he knew I loved him infact i wanted him to know that I loved and valued him
He stared at me... before breaking the eye contact
"He left me even after 6 years of friendship and 1 freaking years of relationship and u think I'll believe everyone will stay?"
I knew whom he was referring too and it hurts to know he still thinks about him
"You still love him?"
I knew this was not the right moment to ask him this but i wanted to know
"I don't khao...i don't but u think anyone will ever love me when he couldn't?
"What made u think like that first?"
"He knew me for 7 years and still didn't actually feel in love with me how will anyone else be? 7 years and he still cheated am I that boring that people gets bored that easily?
I wish I could tell him right now how much I liked him
"Your are not boring look at me I'm with u all the time I want to be with u all the time I don't need anyone if I have u first"
I looked at him with a smile he got up making me stand up
"U will leave khao not intentionally but unintentionally u will"
"Don't challenge me first"
"I'm just telling the truth khao.."
He stood really close to me and stared at me challenging me
I didn't cared about anything right now I just wanted him to know that I cared and loved him maybe my next step will be wrong but i was ready to risk it if this makes him feel like he's loved
So i kissed him..

...... author's note....
You'll can never guess where the story is going lol 😭