I can't eat,
I can't sleep,
I can barely get out bed.
How did you hold,
So much power over me,
And still do,
Even though,
You're no longer with me.
I wake up nauseous,
My days are a blur,
My stomach turns,
And when the moon appears,
I sit restless.
Wondering how are you doing?
But I know the answer.
You are moving on,
You laugh with new friends,
You kiss other girls,
You live like there is,
No guarantee in tomorrow.
I strive desperately,
for that same feeling.
The comfort of letting go.
Why can't I let you go?
I want to stop missing you,
I want to stop yearning,
For the way you cared for me.
I'm not naive though,
I've made the realization,
You are not the same person,
I fell in love with anymore.
So why am I still the same?
The same thirteen year old girl,
who met a boy,
and instantly fell in love.
These past years haven't changed me.
My favorite movie is still,
10 Things I hate about you,
My favorite color still,
switches between green and yellow,
My favorite way to sleep is still,
Wrapped in your arms.
When will I change?
Will the day ever come?
Who am I suppose be,
now that it's just me.
YOU ARE READING
A Girls First Love - A collection of poems
PoetryThis is a dedication to my first love. He is someone who changed me for the better, I won't ever be able to forget him. To this day I still love him in a way, even through how badly he hurt me.
