It's almost funny,
How I thought we'd last forever,
That you would love me,
Till the day that I died.
Now you're just a memory,
My first love,
Which will haunt me everyday.
You made me feel beautiful,
And not the type of beauty models have,
The kind that makes you stop,
In the streets and think wow,
I wish I would've talked to them.
The kind of beautiful,
That make people look kind,
And soft.
A timeless beauty,
Like my moms silk black prom dress.
You look at it and think,
someone had truly loved this.
But jokes are cruel,
And you left.
But I almost felt relieved,
When I heard you say the works,
We are breaking up,
Because now I don't have to carry the weight,
knowing I was never good enough for you.
That you deserved better.
I'm still selfish though,
human nature is, isn't it?
Every time I close my eyes,
my dream is the same,
you come back and kiss me,
and tell me what you did was a mistake.
It feels so real, I'm overjoyed,
but then my eyes flutter open,
and i'm back in an empty bed.
Wondering what I could've done,
Why was I so bad,
What would've changed this?
Because I still love you,
Even when you don't love me.
Even though you found someone new,
I can't move on.
Everyone I meet is compared to you,
The way they look me in the eyes,
If they have dimples when they laugh,
Just like you did.
If they give me that feeling of safety,
If being with them feels like home.
I don't think I'll ever love someone like you,
But I know I can't have you back,
So I have to move on, don't I.
I'll settle for someone who is like you,
And I'll think about all the what ifs.
What if you still love me too?
YOU ARE READING
A Girls First Love - A collection of poems
PuisiThis is a dedication to my first love. He is someone who changed me for the better, I won't ever be able to forget him. To this day I still love him in a way, even through how badly he hurt me.
