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Alycia
"You need help?" Ken asked me as I struggled to put my heels on with my nails on.
"I got it," I assured her.
She sucked her teeth coming over to me and clipping them for me.
"It's ok to need help you know?"
"I know but ion want help," I got up not wanting to talk about this topic right now.
"Is she coming?" She asked referring to my momma.
"Hopefully," I shrugged not wanting to get on that topic either.
"You can talk to me-
"I know Ken but I don't wanna talk about it, I don't even wanna live it but I am. I wanna be happy but I'm not, imma fucked up person who can't even get her feelings straight." I sighed tilting my head back feeling my eyes start to water.
She came to sit next to me rubbing my back in a soothing manner.
"Is this about Youngboy and Horace?" She asked and I nodded.
"I don't wanna fall for him but he's making it hella hard, it's like he knows the exact things I love without even knowing it for real. He's knocking down my walls without even trying, he's making me like him without even trying. He's just him around me but for some reason I still find a way to like him," I played with my fingers.
"I don't wanna like him or fall for him but I can't help it, with Horace I could control my feelings but with him I can't. Ion know what's wrong with me," I vented as my bottom lip started to quiver.
"Alycia nothing is wrong witchu baby, I promise. You're just confused right now and that's ok, don't stress yourself about this. Who do you really want to be with?" She asked and I shrugged.
"Ion know. I've known Horace longer but I don't see him as more than a close friend because ion wanna fuck up what we have already but he's just so him which makes me wanna just give it a try," I explained and she nodded understanding.
"So what about Youngboy? What do you see him as?"
"At first, he was just someone who I owed money but he has something that attracts me to him. Ion know what it is but it's pulling me hella hard, his vibe, just everything about him is chill and relaxing to me."
"Aww you like him," she nudged my shoulder smiling causing me to blush.
"Stwappp," I covered my face.
"It's ok to like him you know?" She assured me as she moved my hands.
"Yes, I know but I just wanna know why I like him."
"Think hard, what does he do and have that you want and like?"
"Well, he's aggressive wimme at the right times, he shows me that he cares, he takes care of me, he holds me while I cry into his chest, he's a good listener when it comes to me venting, he's gentle with me when I'm not getting smart with him, he knows how to handle me. That's surprising to me because he doesn't threaten me with sex all the time when I talk to him backwards. He matches my energy, he boasts my head up all the time, he cheers me up when I'm sad, Mikey loves him and he loves Mikey, he doesn't seem bothered for real when I get buck or smart with him. Yea he might put me in my place but it doesn't seem to bother him that much," I explained smiling hard as fuck.
