Love Is

NINETEEN

Kai POV
Time Skip:Next Morning 11AM

I was in my game room thinking about everything since 8AM. I messed up the damn room unfortunately. The tv was broken so was a bunch of other stuff. I broke down & was sitting on the floor. Amaya went out to run some errands but I didn't know she was back yet.

Amaya POV

I walked in our house putting the bags down of baby clothes & some snacks I got for us. I called out for Kai nothing so I went to the game room. I opened the door & saw Kai sitting on the floor crying the room a mess. But I didn't care about the room. My husband my lifeline. My heart broke. I went into the room & hugged him.

Hey I got you. I said.
N-No I'm fine. He said.
Look at me. You are not fine & that's okay. We can stay here in silence & talk later. I said holding his face.
O-Okay. He said wrapping his arms around my waist.

About 15 minutes passed then he spoke up.

Can I tell you something?? He said looking at me.
Yes anything it's okay. I said.
It's a lot going on. I think I need to leave & figure this out on my own for a while. He said.
What's going on?? & I'm sorry but I'm not comfortable with that. I love you. We can get through this I promise I'm here for you always.I said trying not to cry. The tears formed in my eyes anyways.
Please I just need space. He said.
Okay you can stay in the guest bedroom. I said.
No... He said. My heart sank.
So you're going to leave your pregnant wife?? Look please just stay we can figure this out. I said holding his hand.
I don't want to figure this out I don't wanna be here. He yelled. I jumped back.
O-Okay,it's fine. I said walking out the room.
Wait I'm sorry I didn't mean to... He said.
You still did though Kai. I'm trying to be there for you. Just let me do that. I cried.
No please don't cry. Babygirl, look my cousin passed away 2 weeks ago & I've been stressed about everything else too. He said.
Why didn't you tell me?? We always tell each other everything. I said looking at him.
You're pregnant & you got enough to worry about. He said.
No you Kai. I love you so much I will always worry about you babe. I can't let you leave I'm worried. I want you here with us. I said hugging him & crying.
I'm sorry but just give me some time okay. I'll be back later. Kai said kissing my forehead & leaving out the game room.
Kai wait... I said as I followed behind him.
Destiny please I just need some fucking space bro. I'll be back. He said.
Leave than but I'm not going to be here when you get back. I'm tryna help you Kai. I said.
Leave go ahead. It don't matter. I don't... He said yelling.

I slapped him in his face I was furious.

I don't know who you talking to but it's not me. Before you make me get some fucking divorce papers I suggest you stop talking or let those words out your mouth. I said.
What the hell is going on?? Man ya'll woke me up.Kalvin said walking out his room with his gun.
Talk to your brother before he lose me. I said going upstairs.
Man whatever. I said I'll be back I need space. He said.
Then go get some fucking space than I won't be her.... I yelled.
Ya'll both need to calm the hell down. Take a breather & talk tomorrow. Kalvin said.
I'm out. Later. He said.

I cried he really just left. Kalvin came upstairs quickly & hugged me.

He'll be back. Everything's going to be okay & I'll beat his ass for you. Kalvin said.
No I think I'm done Kal. I said getting up & going into our room.
What?? He needs you sis. Kalvin said following me into the room.
No he obviously doesn't. The love of my life just told me he needed space & to leave him alone. I get it he's pushing me away because ya'll cousin passed away. But it's not fair. It hurts. I said.
Yeah Quincy did pass away 2 weeks ago. But he didn't want to bring it up because you was already dealing with stuff & pregnant. Kalvin said.
I understand that but it was okay for him to tell me. I care about him & his well being. I said throwing clothes in my big duffle. The clothes should last a week.
I know how you're feeling he does this. He pushes people away when he's hurt. Kalvin said.
It's fine. Just tell him I love him but I have to leave. I said grabbing my car keys & purse.
You can't please sis. Where are you going?? Kalvin said blocking the doorway.
I can & I will. I'm not going to tell you just so you can tell him. I love you okay lil bro. You take care of him for me okay?? I said hugging him.
I will. Be safe please. Take your safety off your gun. He said.

I walked out the door & got in my car driving to a hotel in uptown. It was damn near 2 hours away. I turned off my location when I was at the house. That was first thing he was going to check. I got settled into my room & put the lock on the door. Then I put my gun in the dresser & my throwing knife under my pillow. I just went to sleep I was so tired & hurt.

Kai POV
Time Skip:10PM

I shouldn't have left like that but I needed space. My little cousin, Quincy was supposed to be here. He called me when someone shot him & I couldn't do anything to help. I had a few blunts & a beer by Shawn then was just driving around. I was driving through my old hood going past the green light. Suddenly, this car came out of nowhere & I blacked out. I got into a fight with my wife & I never said I love you. I just left. I love her & our baby so much. Lord protect them.