Love Is

TWENTY-FOUR

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Kai POV
Time Skip:10AM

I woke up to an empty bed than I heard sniffles coming from the bathroom. Kayson wasn't in his crib so he's most likely with my brothers. I got up & knocked on the door.

Babygirl,can I come?? I asked.
Y-Yes. She said her voice breaking. This hurt me so bad. I went in & sat on the floor with her holding her.
What's going on?? Also,Why didn't you wake me up babygirl?? I asked rubbing her back so she can calm down she was shaking.
I-I had a panic attack & I didn't want you worried. Plus you were sleep. She said shaky.
No it's okay to wake me up always. Anytime you need me I'm there. What caused your panic attack?? I asked pulling her in my lap & fixing her towel then I noticed red on her towel. I looked up at her & she started crying more.
I-I didn't mean to. I'm sorry. She said crying & shaking.
I'm not mad babygirl. Just let me see please so I can clean it up. I said softly. She her towel up a little & I saw her thighs with cuts on them. Tears started flowing from me.I hugged her quickly. My babygirl.
I-I'm sorry I-I didn't mean to scare you I just needed it to stop. She said clutching on to me & crying.
You don't need to apologize. Just vent to me while I clean it up okay?? What did you need to stop?? I asked as I picked her up & rested her on the bench in the bathroom. I got the first aid kit & came back. She watched me carefully.
Breathe babygirl. I'm not mad I'm worried. But I'm going to help you. If you need a break tell me.I said holding her wrist as I checked her pulse. It was fast.
Okay. She said softly as she took a deep breath in & out.
Good job, you ready to clean them?? I asked grabbing the alcohol wipes to clean it.
Yes. She said with tears in her eyes. I cleaned it then wrapped it. I threw everything else out & put the first aid kit back.
We can talk later. Where's Kayson babygirl?? I asked her picking her up gently.
He's with Kalvin & Kasper in their room. They insisted on watching him. I told them if he keeps crying just bring him back & I'll feed him. She said as she sat on the bed playing with her hands.
Okay thank you & I got it don't worry. Can I ask you a question? & you be honest with me no matter your response. I said pulling my tshirt over her. Than I helped her put on her underwear & my sweats.
Yes. She said laying on the bed.
Do you think you're going through postpartum or something else?? I asked pulling her to lay on me.
B-Both I just don't know when it started exactly. I don't wanna end up hurting myself & leaving you & Kayson. She said crying again.
I understand now & thank you for telling me I know that was hard for you. I got you always. Just rest right now okay?? I love you & I'm not mad just worried wifey. I said softly kissing her & wiping her tears from her face as I held it gently. She was falling apart infront me & I didn't notice. I love her so much I can't imagine ever losing her.
I love you too & okay. Are you going to be here when I wake up?? She said calming down her breathing as I helped her with it.
Yes of course baby. Just close your eyes & rest. I'm not going anywhere. I said putting her on top of me & fixing the cover.

She eventually fell asleep thankfully. I watched her as she slept I rubbed her back which helps when she's in a bad mood. She kept apologizing & asking if I was mad. I would never be mad at her for this. Her feelings will always be important to me. I was worried about her. Plus we have our son now. I texted my brother,Kasper again checking in on my son. He said he's doing good & he just feed,changed his diaper. Now they're all relaxing. I couldn't sleep I just wanted to keep her in my arms. I talked to Amaya's doctor & she told me to keep a close eye on her & she's going to have start doing therapy. Plus most likely taking her meds again.