Love is in the Air ( Nine)

What is there to think about, part two !

Saturday November 30 th  2023
Part two

Maya , Carina and baby Niccolas at home... everyone is playing outside with their friends.. ...

13 h 23

Carina : i can't believe that my own kids would be able to ghost me like this.... I've been calling them for two days straight and they are still not giving me any signs of " yes of course we want to get to know you and your family"
Maya : hrmmm , I'm really sorry for you babe! I'm sure if you can find it somewhere in your heart to give them a second chance to get to know you and you to get to know them... they'll probably be happy to do that?
Carina : Bambina ... STOP DEFENDING THEM.... We don't know them ... please... if they were really really serious about wanting to get to know me... they would have reached out to me by now!! It's getting really ridiculous at this point...
Which side of the story are you on? THEIRS OR MINE ?
Maya : I'm obviously on your side of the story babe... I really really am.... I'm just saying you took Kayla in.... Why can't you do the same for Sky....
Carina : ITS NOT THE SAME THING BAMBINA ! I took care of Kay Kay when she was a little girl... when her mother went to travel for work... and with the two ... I WAS TOLD that they were dead ... so for twenty four years I completely blocked them and everything pregnancy related with them out of my head.... And now i find out they are both alive.... And my dad apparently lied to me about saying that they wanted to know me ... like... I grieved that for years... how do you just un grieve??  I'm not going to be all lovey dovey with them .. until they want to be part of my life... they haven't called me or drop by our house to say "yes we want to put the efforts into building a some kind of a relationship with you mom .... We should have been looking for you sooner ..." !

Maya: they said they were going to call you back tomorrow or after tomorrow my love.. let's just not jump to conclusions right away...
Carina : I don't know...  I just feel sick to my stomach thinking about this... WHAT IS THERE TO THINK ABOUT? it's either YES OR NO ? It ain't that hard....

I know you're just trying to help me with this... but I definitely need some time alone...
Maya : I understand.. and I'm here for you. I love you so much.... With all my heart..
Carina : I know.. I love you too , to the moon and back, forever and always.
Maya : to the moon and back forever and always!

{Carina is confiding herself to baby nicco }
Like what do you think I should do? I've been lied to bambino .... My papa told me that they were

** she whispered the word dead ! **

And now mommy thinks I should forgive them... apparently they are looking for me, but I don't feel like they are... because they haven't reached back out to me yet... like I am not going to be waiting for them to show up at our front door like a sitting duck ..

I'm going to focus on you beautiful nine perfect children... and I'm not going to blame myself anymore.... I'm done...

** baby Niccolas babbles away to his momma .. **

14h45 

**Carina applied niccolas's cream around his little scar on his chest... it's so it doesn't look horrible... Addie gave her the cream, afterwards she finally came back downstairs and buried her head into her wife's chest and laid there, while baby Nico was in his momma roo swing , having a blast **

Im sorry for my reaction I didn't know what to do or feel....
Maya: it's totally fine... my love, you are forgiven..
Carina: thank you Bambina .. I don't know what I would do without you...
Maya: hrmmmmm ! I'm just sorry that you have to go through this again...
Carina: maybe we should get dinner started for tonight?
Maya: I will... you can stay here in the living room and relax.... Okay ? Go to your happy place and I'll be back to cuddle with you after I get dinner started....
Carina: okay, wait , give me a kiss first....
Maya : of course my love....