Royalé Clash

Chapter 39 - Don't leave

ELSA:

Me and Jack are walking here at the hallway heading towards to the clinic. I so really don't want him with me and if I could just turn back time and change Mrs. Brooklyn's decision, then I'm not with him right now.

And this is completely awkward to me. I hate him that he acts like nothing happened yesterday.

"Jack, could you please just leave me alone for a moment?" I said at Jack but Jack acts like he didn't hear nothing. "Jack, I'm damn serious."

"Why can't you be comfortable with me, Elsa?" Jack said firmly, "If you'll still think of what happened yesterday and you feel awkward when you're with me, well honey, I don't give a fuck. That was just a dare. Nothing serious." He said.

He left me, dumbfounded. I don't know what to do. Like all what I felt before was all coming back to me again. I wanted to kick his balls and rip his skin all the way. I wanted to slap him, punch him in the face so that he doesn't have the charm again. I wanted to do to him what he did to me, so bad. But I know I couldn't do it, because I know that I'm still in love with him and I couldn't hurt the people who mean a lot to me. But this is so rude! He's so rude. He knows that I'm in love with him but he still hurts me. He still hurts me a lot when he already knew that I was so hurt because of him until now. And he's so unfair! He's so freaking unfair! Words don't have the power to hurt me, unless the person who said them mean a lot to me.

Then I felt a hot liquid at the corner of my eyes, like I'm going to cry anytime soon (which what I'm already doing). I lowered my gaze so that he'll not see me crying at that stupid stuff.

"I- uhm." No words coming out of my mouth, like I don't know what to do and to say something good that he'll not recognize that I was hurt again by him right now. I wanted to run back home and cry all I want just like what happened before. I wanted to end this nightmare so bad but he's still here. He's literally here with me. Like he didn't say anything bad to me because he's acting so innocent to the point that it really pisses me off. "I think I'm not feeling good, I'll just uhm, I'm going to somewhere." I said and ran off. I didn't wait for him to reply at what I just said and I quickly ran off. He broke my heart in to a million pieces again and I just let him do that all over again, I'm so stupid when it comes to him.

I heard him yelled my name. I didn't turn around I just keep running and I don't know where to go. I need someone to comfort me right now because my chest feels so hurt, so bad like I couldn't breathe. I just need someone right now who wouldn't hurt me. I need someone right now to make me feel safe whenever I'm with him or her. I need someone who's willing to be my crying shoulder whenever I'm hurt. I just need someone who cares for me, and who'll promise me not to hurt me the way like Jack did to me. It hurts so much.

Then suddenly, I bumped on someone. I felt a chest in front of my face. Then there, I cried so hard. I don't care who's this man right now but I know I needed a good cry. I should be mad at him too because he's not paying attention to the people who's in a hurry. But I just don't care anymore, I really need a good cry. I felt him hugged me, I hugged him back. My face still buried at his chest, I'm so embarrassed because I'm crying at a stranger. But when he hugged me, I know I'm safe whenever I'm with him. It lessen the pain I was holding right now. But still, it still hurts.

"Hiccup." Someone said angrily and I know who that is. I hugged this stranger so tight like I was acting that I would never, ever let him go.

"Jack." This stranger said and his voice was mad too. Then I realized, all along I was hugging Hiccup. Hiccup was here when Jack hurt me. And I'm so thankful because I have him right now.

"Let go of her." Jack said stiffly. I hugged him even more.

Hiccup let go of his hands off me. But I still hugged him even though he released his hands off me.

"I already let go of her, but she still wants me. Maybe she knows that I wouldn't treat her like the way you treated her. She knows she's safe whenever she's with me." Hiccup said and I just remained silent. He put his hands in his pockets while I'm still hugging him. "When a girl ignores you, it doesn't mean she hates you. It means you hurt her." Hiccup said and cupped my face, I looked at him straight at the eyes and still crying. "Don't cry, Elsa. Someone's better than him. Don't cry at a jerk. You deserve someone better." He said and kissed me on my forehead and hugged me again. I know he's looking at Jack, "I'm here. You're safe with me, I'll never hurt you the way he did."

"Elsa, I thought you're going to the clinic with me? I thought you're not feeling well." Jack asked and I just remembered that.

I stopped hugging Hiccup and faced him, whenever I see him hurts me so much. Like he's my weakness. "Because I just realized, the pain you gave me was more hurt than what I felt a while ago." I said and faced Hiccup again. He put his arms on my shoulder and we started walking away. Leaving Jack behind.

It hurts to leave just like that at Jack. But I know I need someone who'll comfort me at him. I'm sorry, Jack.

"Elsa, don't." His voice broke. I know it is. I'm not assuming. I know his voice just broke. But remember, Elsa. He hurt you. Don't be fool again.

"I'm sorry, Jack." I whispered and continued walking.

"Elsa, I said don't." Jack said and I couldn't turn around, I stopped. I don't know what to do. I sense that his voice was sad. I know he's not okay. I know he needed someone right now. I know he need someone who he can talk to and tell her or him his problems. I know I need to be that someone. But I'm hurt because of him too. "Please, don't leave me like the way they did." He said. I heard his knees collapsed on the floor. I know he's now kneeling down. I know he's already crying. I can't turn around to face him and ran to him and hug him so very tight. I can't comfort him because he's the reason why I'm crying too. I want to tell him that he's okay when he's with me. I want to tell him that I'll not leave him the way they did. I'll not hurt him the way they did. I want to tell him I already forgave him and moved on. I want to tell him that I'm here. I want to tell him how much I love him. But, I can't. I just can't.

I feel like I'm crying too but I tried so hard to held it back. But I know I failed. "How I wish I could give you my pain just for one moment. Not to hurt you but rather, so you can finally understand how much you hurt me." I said and ran away. I can't stand it hearing him so sad like that.