Royalé Clash

Chapter 34 - My own

Chapter 34 - My own

JACK:

'If a girl admits that she likes you, know that it took every ounce of courage she has. Don't take her for granted.'

That thing stuck inside of my mind. Like, what the fuck? I don't even know why my Teacher said that to me. Does she knows about me and Elsa? It cannot be.

"Seriously, dude. What happened on your eyes?" Kristoff asked me. We are here inside of the cafeteria. Taking our break.

"I got bitten by a cockroach, if that's the answer you wanted." I said and took a sip from my drink.

"He slept 3 in the morning, Kris. You're not paying attention a while ago. Don't you?" Hiccup asked Kris and Kristoff slowly nodded while smiling. "We knew it."

"It's not my problem!" Kristoff said and Flynn raised his eyebrow.

"What do you even mean? You don't make any sense." Flynn said and took a spoonful of rice.

"Don't mind him, Flynn. He's senseless. Anyway, why did you slept 3 in the morning, Jack?" Hiccup asked me and I looked at him.

He seems that he's waiting for an answer. I looked at my food once again and grabbed the fork, playing with the spaghetti I ordered, "Elsa's crying 'til 3 in the morning. I couldn't sleep because of her. She's so loud. She doesn't even care if she'll wake everyone up." I said and still playing with my food.

"Stop playing with your food, Jack." Kristoff said and I rolled my eyes as I looked at him. "It's bad."

"Don't care." I said and I still played with my food.

"What's happening to you? Why are you bringing back the old Jack?" Hiccup asked me and I looked at him furiously. "Never mind." He added. I think he already knew that I will not answer his question.

"Why do you think Elsa cried all night 'til 3 in the morning?" Hiccup asked me and I looked at him again. "Are you not curious?"

"I know the answer, Hicc. I know she's crying because of me."

"Why?"

"Why do you have to be so stupid, Hicc? Of course, at what I am doing to her!"

"What are you doing to her?"

"Stupid, Hicc, stupid!" I yelled as I smashed my fists on the table as I stand up. I really hate it when they'll or Hiccup will open up Elsa as a topic. Automatically, the students, looked at me. "Of course, I rejected her for so many times! I rejected her feelings, her love towards me, her likeness towards me. I even played at her fucking feelings! And now, I am making her life fucking miserable! I don't even know why I am fucking doing this!" I said. I can feel the students' eyes all on me. I even can feel that my blood is boiling inside of me because of madness. Because I was broke before. I even played a poor, innocent girl's heart. She doesn't even deserve it. Fuck this life.

"Why are you doing this?" He asked me calmly, I can't believe him. After all the yelling and cursing words I told him, he's still calm. Wherein, I hurt the girl he love.

"Because I don't fucking like her!" I yelled at him again and I sighed, "This is bullshit!" I yelled again and kicked the chair in front of me I was sitting before.

I am so selfish. All I think is about myself, I don't think about the people around me. People who cared for me. I was busy thinking about myself on what I should do today to break girl's hearts who's trying to confess their feelings towards me. Trying to confess their love for me. I am loved. But I don't fucking care. Why?

I was going to exit the cafeteria when I bumped on someone. Who's crying... what the fuck?

"Watch where are you fucking goin-" I was cut off by my own self when I saw Elsa who's crying in front of me. She must've heard what I all said earlier.

Her next action surprises me.

She slapped me hard in my face.

I caressed my right cheeks and looked at her with my furrowed eye brows, "What the fuck was that for?!" I yelled at her and she looked at me furiously while sobbing.

"You deserve it, moron!" She yelled at me and ran away. I felt guilty again.

I don't know what I did but I ran after her. I'll try to explain everything to her. Wherein, I don't know what to say to comfort her.

As I followed her, I saw her sitting on the swing. She buried her face in to her hands. I sighed and sat on the swing beside her.

When she felt my presence, she quickly looked at me. I saw her tears all over her face and she managed to look at me. I smiled weakly at her and her next action surprises me.

She smiled at me sweetly, as if nothing happened. Her smile, her smile... she's so beautiful.

"You still make me smile, even if you're the main reason why I am sad. It's just, your smile lights up my world. It's just so despondent, to think that, you are smiling not because of me." Elsa said and she looked at me in the eyes. Tears rushing down on her face. She stood up, and ran away. I didn't even dare to follow her. All I know was, I felt a warm sensation on my face. A tear.

And then I realized that, I just didn't break Elsa's heart, I also break my own.

I'm sorry, Elsa. I can't love you the way you love me. I-I don't even like you. I thought.

NOTE:

Jack makes me effin confuse! Seriously, well, hope you liked the chapter. Please vote and comment if you liked it! Comments are highly appreciated <3