My Alpha Mate

The Painful Truth

Chapter 46: The Painful Truth.

Dedicated to: MermaidMoonFairy

{Valerie}

I take notice of the way his shoulders are sagged, how his hands are clasped together, and the broken tone of his voice as he looks at me with a clenched jaw.

"I-I-." I couldn't stop my stuttering after finally seeing him after six days. Having him in front of me made me realize that and some of my anger flew out the window.

So much for boiling rage.

"I thought you were going to come and tell me the second you got home. That didn't happen. I was going to go into your room when I heard you crying but then you got into the shower. I figured you'd be angry if I chose then to walk in. Then I thought, 'She'll surely tell me once she gets out'." Greyson says and a sudden pang hits my heart from his voice that sounds so sad and upset.

"Greyson, I'm sorry. I-I was still figuring things out in my own head. I was angry because you haven't been home in nearly a week, you can't fault me for that." My voice was soft as I tried to soothe him but he still didn't look at me.

"And then you went to the first ultrasound without me." His voice wasn't angry or upset, but disappointed. I hated that tone from him and never wanted to hear it again.

"I wasn't sure when you'd be home, I had to get things done. You've never- I didn't want to give you false hope and say I was pregnant if you want a baby." I say nervously.

I don't like seeing him like this. It made me sad and at times like this I hated being so in sync with his emotions because I could feel that he was upset he wasn't there for me.

My body worked on it's own. I walk over slowly then straddle his lap and bring his face up to look at me.

"I was scared to tell you. We never talked about children, and I-I didn't know if you wanted any and I freaked out because I thought you'd be upset if that wasn't something you-." My voice breaks at the end and I wasn't sure why. I didn't feel like I was about to start crying, but my throat suddenly felt dry and sore. I felt embarrassed and upset so I covered my face with my hands trying to take deep breathes to think my words through. That seems to help when I'm anxious about something.

Great. This is just great. This is exactly what I didn't want.

"Sweetheart are you kidding? All I've ever wanted was to see you carrying our baby." He says and pulls my hands from my face.

I look into his eyes to see that they're pained filled, and again it hurts my heart, but I was glad that I didn't cry.

"I didn't want to tell you until I knew for sure, but even then you weren't here." Greyson pulls me closer holding me and saying how it's okay.

"No it's not 'okay'. You've been waiting for this probably longer than I have and you didn't even get to be there." After stating that is what makes my throat tighten and he shakes his head.

"I know, it's a little upsetting but I'm fine. I have you here and I have our baby here with me." His voice was reassuring as I look into his grey eyes.

"Greyson I'm sorry for what a few days ago." I say and he strokes his thumb across my cheek.

"No I'm sorry for leaving." He says and lays us down on the bed and covering us with the blankets.

Leaving. That's where I was supposed to get my anger to rip into him.

"Where'd you go?" I ask softly and he pulls me closer kissing my forehead.