24 to 25 // minsung

d a y 12

December 12th

...

I fell asleep at Jisung's place

He covered me with blanket and said he didn't want me to be cold

It was nice.

He is nice.

He made me breakfast and asked if I slept well

No one ever done it before...

It was... Nice. I felt really... Good?

But...

No.

I can't let him be close with me.

I have plan.

I have my purpose.

I need to leave him.

And he can't miss me.

But I liked way he took care of me.

It was... So warm and lovely...

I will miss it.

'Hey, Minho?'

Minho turned his head to Jisung, who jumped on sofa and sat right next to older one, looking at him with starts into his eyes.

'I have propose to you. You seem nice, but lonley so... Do you wanna make a small challenge with me?'

'What do you mean?'

'Let's spend days together till Christmas doing some activities. Ice-skating, shopping, baking. And let's spend Christmas together. Please~'

'Don't you think it's very irresponsible? You don't know me, I don't know you. I shouldn't even be here, at your house.'

'But you are. So maybe it's fate? Maybe it's mean that something in universe planned us to met and know each other? Oh, c'mon! Don't be like that~ It's gonna be fun, we won't feel alone.'

'I like being alone.'

'If you really would you wouldn't hold my hand while sleeping so tight. Don't be so stubborn. I promise, you won't regret!'

'Jisung, but why don't you understand? I don't want to make any friendship, I don't want to spend time with you. '

Hearing cold tone of older, Jisung felt small pain in his heart.

'Maybe because you cried in sleep and you said you don't want to be alone? Maybe because you caught my hand and you didn't let me go? I... Don't know you. And you don't know me. But... Let's just spend Christmas together and then you can leave me. Forget about me and live our own life. I'm just... I'm just worried, okay? I don't know, just... Something is telling me that our meeting wasn't accidental. Please, give me chance and give one to yourself. Besides, I don't believe any of words. You don't want to friendship, but you call me cute names, you coming over just to stay with me because why not, you literally doing everything for me. '

Shorter one grabbed Minho's hands and looked into his eyes with worry, hope and tears. He knew it can be nonsense, because they didn't know each other at all. But he felt that something in the world wanted they to meet.

'Please don't be like that... Don't reject me, just give me chance... Only one chance... When... You were talk in sleep you said that you just wanna be loved. Let me give you what you want... I want to make you be loved. And I would love to make you feel the same to me... Please let you relationship grow... '

Jisung cried quietly, looking into Minho's eyes.

Lee softly wiped younger boy tears, sighing and hugging him tightly. He felt sorry for his words and what he said to him.

'I'm.. I sorry.. I shouldn't be that rude... But... I really need to leave so soon. I would be happiest man in the world letting you be closer to me but... I can't... I just need to leave.'

'Could we at least call to each other sometimes?'

'... We will see. I can't promise it. And please, don't cry. It's gonna be okay.'

I am so sorry for lying to you awfully...