24 to 25 // minsung

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December 15th

I feel sad.

Jisung is really take care if me a lot.

And I can't repay in any way.

I feel bad because if that

I really want to take care of him

I want to be his safe place

I want to be his comfort person

I want to be someone who he will trust

I want to be his

I want to he be mine...

I hate myself for my plans.

I love him

But my other me reject our relationship

I'm so sorry Jisung

I love you

'Good morning... How do you feel today?'

'Morning... Could be better... But thanks.'

Minho only heard Jisung sight in phone, listening to oddly long silent.

'Are you sure you want to be alone today? I'm really worried about you...'

'Yeah, I'm okay... Thank you.'

'... Your parents texted you again, right?'

'... Yes...'

'And blamed you?'

'...'

'I'll be in few minutes.'

And he was. Literally few minutes took for Jisung to come over Minho place. Without even knocking he went to older's room, lying down next to other boy and hugged him tightly.

He knew there was no words needed, no conversation. Just one warm hug and small hair petting. And this was something what Minho appreciated.

'Thank you for coming...'

'That's okay.'

'How can I repay?'

'Please smile. I don't like you being sad...'

Minho slightly smiled, hiding face into younger one arm. He was deeply thinking about everything now. Will he be able to leave Jisung? It would be so selfish. But will he be able to suffering being alive? With that all pain? With his mental devastation?

'I like your hugs.'

'Huh?'

'I like when we hug. I heard hugs and cuddles makes people feel better. I truly hope it gonna make you feel better a bit. You always hug me very warm. I feel safe next to you.'

Minho looked at Jisung with small tears in his eyes. He didn't know why but... It hit different. No one never told him something like that. No one never took care of him like that. It was different but he liked it.

'I'm so glad I make you feel safe. And... Thank you for talk to me that night... I... I have never thought before that I'll feel something to someone that fast.'

'You feel something to me?'

'... I do.'

Jisung smined widely and squeaked, jumping on Minho and hugging him so tightly.

'YOU FINALLY ADMITTED YOU LIKE ME!! YES YES YES!!'

He screamed, making Minho giggle.

'Now you need to propose to me. Come on. I'll say yes!'

'Isn't that too fast?'

'No. Let's go, let's go. Propose!'

'Geez, wait with that. We are not in rush...'

'I am.'

'No you are not.'

'Uhh... Can we be at least unofficially boyfriends?'

'Give us some time.'

'But will you ask me??'

'One day.'

'OMG!! You are so stubborn!'

Jisung pretented to be offended, looking over his arm at Minho after few minutes.

'Would you kiss me at least?'

Minho sighed quietly, not even moving. Jisung bite his bottom lip, understanding that it won't happen. He wanted to apology, but then Lee turned brunette in his back, hanging over him and pecked small kiss on Han's lips.

Kiss wasn't long, literally few milliseconds. But for Jisung it was like forever. Like best second in his life. When Minho broke kiss, he sensitively rubbed younger's cheek, looking into his eyes so deeply.

'Can I pretend I dying to you could give me artificial respiration?'

What a kid...