24 to 25 // minsung

l a s t d a y

Final day.

I didn't write any notes because I was with Jisung I trip

He would notice me writing notes

It was...

It was amazing time

I think I couldn't imagine my last days better

Jisung made them amazing

But...

Now...

Minho took new paper sheet, wiping his tears słowny rolling down his cheeks. He didn't want to leave Jisung like this. He really fell in love with Jisung and leaving him like that... Was like killing him. But Minho had his plan. Had his goal. And it was his suicide.

Dear Jisung.

I know it is last thing you supposed me to do. But... Before we met first time I decided to die. When we started being closer, I started falling for you. I tried my best to not let you love me and me to not fall for you but... I couldn't help. I fell in love with you so bad. Now... Now I could do everything for you. I know that your wish wrobabky would be 'I wish to you stay with me'. This is some think I can't do for you. I need to leave. People like me doesn't deserve to live. So I will leave. I'm sorry I'm leaving you like that. I'm so sorry I made you love me and I'm sorry I love you. Thank you for this month. You made it best month in my life. You shown me how it is when you love someone, when you have someone to take care of, to comfort. Thank you for letting me spend time with you, kissing you, make you feel good.
I love you and I will take care of you from other side.
Your Minho.

Pen ink slightly blurred because of his tears. He knew he need to give letter for Jisung, but how? He had only one idea but...

'Hey, Ji... Are you doing something now?'

'Nope, just chilling. Why?'

'Can you please come to our place? When we met first time? In 15 minutes?'

'Yeah, sure. See you!'

Right after ending call Minho went fast to the park when they met first time. His only idea was leaving letter under the tree where they were sitting for long time. And that's what he done. When he was leaving letter, he noticed Jisung, but jisung didn't notice him, so he quickly ran to his place, finally being ready to end up with his life.

When he came back home, he immediately hang rope on roof, making noose, but... He couldn't do it. He felt huge urge to put noose on his throat, but something inside blocked him, making him cry. He stood like that long time, few times trying to finally do last step and when he was ready, he felt strong embrace on his waist what made him be confused.

He immediately turned to see what is going on, but then he felt something wet on his arm and heard quiet cry.

'Please... Don't to this... Don't... Please stay with me... You need to promise. You need to promise you won't do it... Promise me please... Y-you love so why you want to leave me? Please don't leave me... I won't handle living without you... I love you too much to keep living without you... Please Minho... '

'J-jisung... I-...

'Just stay. Take of noose and... And please... Please stay with me...'

Now both boys were crying. Like two kids. Both of them was into each other arms, crying and wiping their tears. Even if Minho didn't see point of life, there was jisung who was full of positive energy. Now Minho was sure that Jisung could be someone who will share that Energi with him.