Hiding

Chapter twenty-four

"Good morning" Magnus mumbles next to Alec and he stretches then wraps his arms around Magnus.

"Morning" Alec looks into Magnus' eyes, "you seem less grumpy this morning" he nudges him with his nose "might I even say chipper."

"No please don't" Magnus pleads. "Can I ask you something?"

"Always"

"Do you still...."

"Still what?" Alec asks then sees the insecurity in Magnus, "oh you want to know if I still love you?" His kisses Magnus' nose, "of course I do. I probably even have for a long time... it was never about me not loving you, Magnus. I promise"

"I believe you..." he climbs on top of Alec and lays down on his chest "what do you want to do today?" He asks with his lips connected to the skin on Alec's chest.

"This..." Alec says with a raspy voice "but preferably with less clothes."

"That can be arranged" Magnus pushes himself up so he is straddling him instead. Both men only wearing underwear. He moves his hips slightly and Alec's body instantly reacts.

"I want to make love to you..." Alec surprises Magnus to an extend where he almost slides of the bed.

"You want to...?" he repeats with a suddenly very dry mouth.

"Make love to you." Alec sits up and puts an arm around Magnus so he can hold him against his body. " I want to make sure my body always will remember that I love you even when my mind might start forgetting because I get scared again."

"Are you talking about this weekend? Are you afraid you'll have another panic attack?" Magnus concern is nearly seeping out of him.

"No, I was actually talking about when we get back." Alex shrugs like it isn't that big of a deal. But it is. To Magnus it is a very big deal.

"Wait... are you saying..." Magnus searches Alec's eyes for sincerity... for fear... for anything that will tell him what Alec is actually feeling in this instance.

"Yes, I want to be with you when we get back. But don't get to excited Magnus, I still won't be able to be public about it. I still have to be very careful." Alec hates that he has make that distinction. Tha the still needs to be in hiding with his sexuality. His love.

"I am excited!" Magnus laughs and hugs him close "This is exciting. And I don't care about not being public. Not even a little. As long as you love me in private, I'm perfectly happy." Magnus practically jumps up and down in Alecs lab.

"You are? Won't you hate it?"

"Absolutely not. Our love is just for us. It's none of anyone else's business. Besides, actors do it all the time, so I'm sure we can do this too." Magnus' excitement affects Alec and makes him more excited to. The fear of disappointing Magnus by not being able to give him all and everything he deserves, slowly fades away.

"Yes, I think so too. I'm not all that into public show of affection anyway, so this..." Alec smiles at Magnus. "us." He says. "It can be a good thing."

"A great thing." Magnus adds as he is looking at Alec like he hung the moon and the start. Love and affection so clear in his eyes. For a moment they do nothing but basks in each other love and devotion.

"Magnus...?" Alec finally says.

"Yes, darling."

"You didn't answer me..."

"Answer what?" magnus asks completely innocent and brushes a strand of Alec's hair away from his face.

"Are you going to make me ask again?" Alec sighs.

"Absolutely."

"I hate you..." Alec mumbles with a loving smile on his lips.

"I'm sure you do..." he moves his hips slightly with excitement while still straddling Alec, making him groan as their bodies grinds together. "Now, ask me..."

"Can I please, Magnus – the love of my life – make love to you?"

"YES!" he squeals almost as if Alec had proposed instead. "God yes. Now and forever." Magnus smiles beamingly "or at least as long as you will have me."

"You are a strange, strange man..." Alec pulls magnus down for a kiss.

"Yes, I believe you have mentioned that before..." Magnus kisses Alec back.

"I have?" he says innocently, "that can hardly be true..."

"And yet it is."

Alecs hands slides down Magnus' body, finding the waistband of his briefs and slowly begins to pull them down. Mangus lifts his body up from where it has been resting on Alec's so he can pull them further down, exposing his ass. Magnus then lies down on top of Alec, lifting one leg, then another, making it easier for Alec to remove the briefs. Alec's breath comes out in shallow huffs, that very clearly indicates his state of mind. Turned on and very nervous.

Once Magnus is naked, he climbs down to the foot of the bed, pressing kisses on the exposed skin all the way to his underwear. Alecs heart is slamming so hard against his chest, and the blood rushing loudly in his ears, that he can barely think, he just lets magnus do his thing, and before he knows it, he is naked, with magnus' hand wrapped around his dick.

"God, you are so beautiful." Magnus says then puts his lips on Alec's throbbing and desperate needy dick.

Alec can only respond in grunts, but he hopes magnus still understand that he is being very appreciative of the compliment and the skilled mouth.

Magnus reaches over to the nightstand, which very surprisingly now contains lube and condoms, because when the fuck did he put it there? But Alec don't get to think about that for very long, because then Magnus' very skilled finger is sudden feeling slick against his rim and he has to bite into his own arm to not scream out from the very pleasurable wave that suddenly washes over him. He had not expected it to feel this good. But Magnus is skilled, so he should have expected it, and Alec can blame no one but himself.

Magnus keeps sucking him and fingering him, making it feel like he is being jerked off from the inside and out and Alec does not know what to do with himself. He claws at the bedsheets, balling int up in his fists as he bucks his hips and whines in a way he never thought he would. And that damn magnus bane just smirks all to proudly of himself. And then Alec comes. Oh, how he comes. For Alec it feels like an explosion inside him, sending waves of heat, and pleasure and relief through him, consuming him. And when the waves slow down, he is oddly satisfied and laughing and crying at the same time. He hadn't even noticed he started laughing, nor crying; but somehow everything feels just right.