Song: Shut up and Dance by Walk the moon.
Mika
Time checked 3am. My eyes are still open and so is my head. I don't know how long I'm staring at the perfectly pitch black surrounding coz my mind keeps on wandering into a certain matter. And that something or rather say someone, is none other than Kiefer Ravena, the basketball superstar. The Phenom.
Every night, I'm having a hard time sleeping peacefully. My own thoughts are bothering me. I still can't believed the conversation that we had last week. Kiefer told me he felt something for me. A special feelings. I don't know how will I call it, but he was utterly frank to admit that his falling for me. Honestly I don't know if it's called love or infatuation or crush or something else, but the moment he looked at me straight into my eyes I knew there was something magical in there. As if a spark of lightning and inside my chest is like a roar of thunder.
I felt excited at the same time confused. I'm not allowed to feel this way. I'm forbidden to entertained any kind of emotions. But why I like the way I feel right now? Why do I need to figured out everything about me?
Ang hirap ng sitwasyon ko. Yung ngayon ko lang naexperience eto pero alam ko agad na di dapat kasi complicated lang. Na hindi ako ung normal na babae na dapat makaranas nito. Yung mahirap ung isang Kiefer Ravena pa ung magtatapat sayo. Jusko ang hirap tanggihan, parang ang sarap subukan kahit ikamatay ko pa. Bakit ba kasi ang daya ng tadhana? Binigay nya pa sakin etong ganitong kondisyon tapos pagtatagpuin kami ng isang lalaking ang hirap tanggihan. Sana isang mukha na lang tipaklong para madali umayaw at bastedin. Pero isang Kiefer Ravena, OMG!!! Awww kulay pa lang at smile nya panalo na.
What shall I do? Until now I still don't know what's gonna be my decision. I wanted to say yes, accept his proposal to go on a date. He even told me that if I prefered the old school style, he's willing to court me. But I know I need to drop that idea. I should say no, it would definitely a big NO. Things for us will be just complicated and I don't want him to get hurt at the end.
Aaminin ko naman kaya ayaw ko sya masaktan kasi ayaw ko maging unfair sakanya at mas lalong ayaw ko sya umasa na magiging maayos ung sa amin. Ayaw ko sya masaktan kasi alam ko sa sarili ko may nararamdaman din akong iba. Hindi ko alam kung pagmamahal na ba eto. Basta ayaw ko sya masaktan.
I need to make a decision. Next week magkikita kami ulit. Magkikita kami sa summer end party ng mga schools namin. Dun ko sasabihin sakanya kung anu ung nararamdaman ko. Hindi ko na dapat patagalin eto. I don't want to be unfair with him. He needs to know everything about me. I need to end his "waiting time".
Kiefer
"Thirds which of these two would you prefer?"
I asked my brother, showing him a two kinds of casual linen long sleeves shirts. One is a clean white with a small black stars pattern, while the other one is a plain baby blue color. Thirdy stares at the shirts for a couple of seconds.
"I'd prefered the baby blue one. It's looks good on you. Specially a Shanghai Tang shirt, casual but yet formal."
"Wait Thirds does this one look formal on you?"
I asked puzzled. Thirds gave me a smirk then chuckled.
"Not naman too formal. It's just like a basic fresh clean get up that you often wore whenever you have a date."
"I'm not going on a "date". I'm attending the summer party of our school."
"Sabi ko nga Manong. But of course you need to wear something appealing pa din. Dami girls dun. And it's not only from our school, remember it's a DLSU - ADMU summer end party."
