i am forgotten so easily.
dissipating slowly like the chipped paint
on his beat down car where he stroked my hair
and told me i'd forever be his only.
and i can't stand the cold without his arms around me.
it's been a year since i met him, leaves falling to the sound of my heartbeat. why does he do everything that breaks me? tapering off my childlike love so quickly.
i heard he's got a new girl; a beautiful blonde. i wonder if she's seen him cry yet. the story of us withdrawling on the same motel bed, candy amphetamines dancing across our skin. how the stars shined on us like we were divinity,
how he told me he would only love me. how i left in a hurry.
wonder if she knows the future we once planned,
where i'd have his italian kids
and one day he'd buy me a diamond.
i want him to regret what he did. and, i want to hear all about it. give me the shame you hold
and cripple my fingers with it
tell me of your sin once again
like all the women you fucked when i was sick
laying in a hospital bed , wishing for you
coming up empty
you were never there, don't lie to me.
kill my rage, god. and light me into someone anew.
