The night turned into day, my leg still shaking and pacing
No one can understand the things I'm facing
What happened? what didn't?
what is real? or just a figment of my imagination
the touch I felt in a crowded place, was it the touch of a mere human or was it my darkness touching me
For I do not know what is real. what is not?
is it all in my head
was it my own fault
Do I even feel all this? do I even go through all this or is it just inside my head
these are the thoughts that haunt me as I lay on my bed
Stabbing, Snapping, Slapping myself
to end this feeling that stays in my chest
Why do I always feel all this?
I am feeling like I am stupid in everything that I do
But I know these are the thoughts caused by my disorder too
I know everything but still feel everything
I wanna cry, I wanna die
I wanna scream
I wanna screech
but I know I can't do anything
as I am supposed to pretend everything
I wish I don't wake up tomorrow, don't breathe or open my eyes
because for doing all this, I have to pay the price
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My Heart's key ( Poem)
Poesiaits a poem of the time i decided to commit suicide. i made a plan and everything and also had a song named trampoline which i could relate to. When i was a child i used to hate myself, my smile, my looks and everything else about myself and then pub...
