You Got Me Sprung

Chapter 29 : I Don't Even Know Anymore

Honestly, I don't even know what is wrong with me anymore. I don't feel pretty anymore. I don't feel and look like myself anymore. Life is just hitting me left and right. It's my fault for not staying focus like I was supposed to. Clearly, I am not myself. My mom came to visit and we talked and there is something she told me when we were talking. She said "Mariah, You don't look like yourself anymore. You're my daughter and I don't want to see you sad ever again. I want my happy, good energy daughter back I love you Mariah". I cried and hugged My Mom when she told me that. Now just thinking about what My Mom told me, I cry just thinking about what she told me because she's right My energy has became extremely low. I'm always crying sad. I even isolated myself from My family and My Friends. My Family and My Friends has told me how they have been feeling. I feel bad knowing that I have isolated myself from everyone that I love. Healing is honestly tough. I am trying to heal the right way but it is so freaking hard right now. I honestly need therapy. Brandon has been trying to call me but I've been ignoring him. How in the hell you gonna block me, wish me the "best", unblock me, and trying to "Communicate" with me. Boy GOODBYE. Please leave me the hell alone. I don't even know why I gave you a chance. Brandon's "Homeboy" been all in my text messages trying to "Spit game" to me. That boy is real embarassing. I just want to be left alone.