⚠️MxFxM STORY WILL BE TOXIC MOST OF THE TIME⚠️
MATURE THEMES SUCH AS SEXUAL ACTS, SELF HARM, VIOLENCE AND MORE
EDEN-IVER (ee-den, ee-v-ayre)
Something... someone, has always been missing from my mind. Somewhere, somehow, I lost... I don't know what...
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•𝐄𝐝𝐞𝐧-𝐈𝐯𝐞𝐫•
I was in love.
I decided to ask Forest to meet me by the lake. It may have been a stupid idea, we only ever hang out in my room. But, I wanted to be somewhere cool when I ask him to go out with me. And it made sense to my sixteen year old brain to do it here.
We've been 'friends' for a few months. He calls us friends, but I feel like we're more than that. Despite me also feeling like he's too good looking to be with someone like me with his curly, honey blonde hair and dark brown eyes. But, his body is also on the scrawny side which I find odd looking but attractive nonetheless.
He kisses me like he loves me. Touches me like I'm precious. We've done a lot. Though, I haven't lost my virginity to him. I don't know why, I've had plenty of opportunities. But something keeps holding me back. A want for something more with him before that, maybe?
"Hey," I hear his voice behind me.
I look over my shoulder from where I sit at a picnic bench at the water and see Forest nearing me. "Hey," I reply softly.
He leans down, pecking my lips. "So, uh," Forest starts while he sits across from me. "Why'd you ask me here? We could've just hung out at one of our houses."
"Well, I was actually thinking we only ever hang out in private and we never do anything but uh... you know." I look down at my hands, cheeks heating with embarrassment.
He clears his throat, looking at the water as he stays silent. "We aren't those kind of friends, though, Eden."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean," he adjusts himself looking at me, "we... bond, over certain things normal friends don't bond over. You let me do things to your body just as I let you do to mine and stuff."
"Do you- do you think we could be more than that? Friends?" I ask the question quietly as I run my hands through my hair nervously.
He looks at me with so much pity in his eyes, "I'm sorry, I'm actually really stressed out with applying to college right now and my moms been hounding me. I don't think that'd be a good idea."
"Oh... uh, yeah. Okay, yeah. I totally get it." I look down. Stupid, stupid, stupid! "Let's just keep what we have." I clear my throat, trying to save myself from any further embarrassment.
