PAPER FLOWERS || TAEKOOK

CHAPTER - 23

Next day he got up with excessive head ache. His head was aching so much that it was feeling like it will explode.

Taehyung mumbled while rubbing his forehead

Taehyung - aah ! my head why is it ach-

But he froze at his spot the second he realise what happened yesterday. After that quick realization he stood up rapidly and started to find the dairy that jimin gave him that day.

He opened his cupboard and took out the dairy. He opened the dairy and saw the date written on the top of the page and it was of a year ago.

First page of the dairy :-

First month dairy

Date - XX-XX-XXXX

Dear dairy

I hate seeing those same scared expression on my mom's face everytime we meet my doctor. She is scared that she will lose me like she lost noona...... No my noona wasn't a heart patient like me , she commited suiside because of my dad...... She was willing to die but i , i don't want that. i want to live , i want to live to see my taehyungie everyday....... It's been a month now since he has declared his relationship with jennie. Not gonna lie she is so beautiful. I wish i could look like her........ You know what actually i hate her. I feel so jealous even though i have no right to feel jealous of her but i do....... God is so unfair with me i mean i love him way before she came , i can bet that no one can love him more than i do , but then why can't i be his main lead? Why am i meant to be just a side character of his story. I also want to be loved by him am i really not worthy of his love? I am not being selfish i know just being around him is more than enough but , but sometimes i really want to be a bit selfish. I know i don't deserve a greek god like him but just once , just once i want to see how it feels like to beloved by kim taehyung........

That was all about this month thank you dairy for listening to my nonsense babbles. See you next month , hopefully....

Goodnight

Second month dairy :-

Date - XX-XX-XXXX

Dear dairy

Today , i'm missing my noona so much. It's not like i don't miss her everyday but today i'm missing her a bit too much........ Only if dad had shown her some love and affection , she wouldn't have done it. Only if that day he wouldn't have told her that she is a shame for him , my noona would have never took this step..... You know she was the only person who was interested in listening to my babbles. After she died i had no one to share my daily routines with untill i decided to write dairy....... Aaah from daily routine i remembered that taehyungie was looking breathtaking today , that black leather jacket suits him well. Fuck i saw a wet dream of him last night........ Jennie is so lucky to have him. I am so jealous but you know there is still something that he does to me , i am the only one he takes out his frustration on and it makes me feel a bit special...... Umm i have a secret. I know that his dad abuses him

Reading this sentence taehyung's eyes widened he had never told anyone about that but then how did jungkook got to know about it , with this question he started to read further .

Actually when we were in eighth standard mom told me to take leave next day as i caught cold and need to go for a check up that day. I went to his home to give him his notebook as it was mandatory to get that notebook checked next day. But when i visit his home i heard noises coming from his home , his father was beating him and he was crying so much. I wanted to help him but i knew that it will only gonna create more problems for him so i remained silent and went back to my home....... I knew i can't protect him from his father as i was just a 13 year old boy so i let him punch me next day without saying a single word so that he could took out his frustration on myself. And from that day whenever he punches me i feel like i have helped him. And i am willing to help him anyway......... hehe

Thats all thank you dairy for listening to me today. See you next month , hopefully.......

Goodnight