Pursuing from the Shore (Sun Rays #2)

Chapter 2

Entry: Redler's Archive

The strings of my guitar are probably cursing at me for neglect and I wouldn't even blame them.

Speaking of playing them again... should I? Sino ba naman ang puwede kong tanungin kung go na? 'Yong mga neon LED lights ko? Argh. Seriously, dahil lang may nagtanong ngayon, hindi na talaga mawala sa utak ko.

It's that guy again. He even bought me coffee with a matching note. Epal talaga. Trying way too hard para maging kapatid ko just because he's cozying up to Mama.

Number 1 fan, number 1 fan. Huwag lang maging basher.

By the way, yes, I thought I'd never write anything that even mentions him again.

— aredgate

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Chapter 2

Number 1 fan?!

Hindi ako na-inform na may fanbase na ako at siya iyong pinakauna. At alam kong nagbibiro lang ang lalaking iyon.

Halos hindi ako makatulog buong gabi kung anong ibig niyang sabihin. He's probably making fun of me. Hindi pa nakakatulong na inooverthink kong narinig niya iyong sinabi ko noong nag-voice live ako.

I should be taking a nap right now, but I just can't because that Davin guy keeps popping into my head. Even when I close my eyes, he won't leave me alone.

I mean, sure, he has got a charming face. That was the first thing I noticed about him. Nothing more, nothing less. But with the way he messes around, I can't let myself fall for that.

"Ang aga-aga, lukot 'yang noo mo." That was Edorina's comment about me.

We were back at the coffee shop again, even though it was still early in the morning. And because of what he said, I instinctively fixed my expression.

What's happening to me, exactly? Hindi na naman ako mapakali.

"Edo, anong sasalihan mong club mamaya?" I asked, changing the topic.

"Sa Dance Club, of course." Kinindatan niya ako dahilan para mapatango ako. "Ikaw ba? Puwede ka sa banda! Tumutugtog ka naman dati, e, kaya go na!"

"What if dagdagan ko ng option. Let's see... Creative Writing Club?"

"Bakit hindi?!" Her eyes widened. "Nagtataka nga ako at hindi ka rin sumasali sa mga writing contest o kaya sa publication dito sa campus. Girl, if you're not decided to join a band, why not give that writing club a shot?"

I sighed. Nakakainis na wala akong malinaw na desisyon ngayon. I quickly looked away, still undecided about whether I should join a club at school. Honestly, I didn't really want to. For one, I had no close friends there, and the thought of socializing with new people made me anxious.

It's exhausting, really, especially since I was never the type to enjoy those things.

Besides, if I did get accepted into the band, we would definitely have to perform in front of a crowd. And that? That wasn't exactly my thing. Not anymore.

At isa pa... natatakot pa rin ako.

There's no way I could ever forget the humiliation I went through back in junior high when I was still an active performer.

I used to be part of the band and music club, loving every moment of it. Until that one person, the one I thought would always support me, ended up being the one who embarrassed me... the most.

"Let's see..." I took a sip on my coffee.

Some of our subject teachers didn't attend our class anymore since most of them were busy organizing the school. Everyone was busy with their own thing. Meanwhile, I just wanted the day to be over, so I didn't bother stressing myself about any of it.