Pursuing from the Shore (Sun Rays #2)

Chapter 22

Alapaap by Eraserheads

Entry: Redler's Archive

It's been a while since I wrote about you.

I don't even know why I stopped. It wasn't like I stopped writing, I didn't. If anything, I wrote more. I just learned how to keep you between the lines.

You said voices matter, even when they're not spoken. So I kept mine there.

But you... I miss you. More than I'd like to admit.

I have so many things I want to tell you. Stories you somehow still belong in. I keep thinking I'd let you read all of them someday. I'd even bring you flowers just so you'd know I remembered.

I kept every petals of lavender flowers you gave me. They're still pressed between pages that carry your name in ways I can't erase.

Siren-eyed guy... I don't like this distance. I don't want to lose you.

I keep wondering if you got tired. If I became too quiet or too much... or maybe not enough.

If you're slowly unlearning me the way I'm still trying to hold on to you. Are you still used to my silence? Or did it finally push you away?

Because I was willing. I wanted to love you. Deeply.

I still do.

— aredgate

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Chapter 22

"H-Huh?" My lips parted, we are now a few inches away from each other. Davin's totally towering his height over me, making me lose my words as I looked at him directly.

"What, Red?" He gulped, hopeful. "Hindi mo ba ako yayakapin?"

I was unable to hear my surroundings. Only I could hear was my racing heartbeat that seemed to take forever to calm down.

I took a half step forward, getting closer to him. When I couldn't stand his siren gaze anymore, I bumped my forehead onto his chest, slowly wrapping my hands around his waist.

"Davin!" I exclaimed when he pulled me closer to him as he embraced me for a warm and tight hug.

Nakatagilid na ang ulo ko ngayon. My ear was directly pressed against his chest, and I was finally able to hear his heartbeat. Sobrang lakas ng tibok ng puso niya.

"Ngayon alam mo na," bulong ni Davin, yakap-yakap pa rin ako. "Tangina, sobrang saya ko."

Being so close to him makes me feel warm. His ceaseless and reassuring heartbeat sounds carefully in my ears. My doubts vanished as we hugged each other in a matter of seconds, my thoughts attained peace and silence. Wrapped in his arms, I feel completely safe—I feel secured, warm, comforted, and completely content just by being with him.

I may not be able to say it now, but I hope the wind carries it to him, how much I missed him. Now that we're finally close, every story I have feels like something I want to share with him.

That's the kind of impact he has on me. When I speak, it feels like he's the one meant to listen.

"I've heard it already," I muttered. "Aren't you going to let me go now?"

"Not yet," sagot niya agad.

Tumingala na ako sa kanya. He's looking at my eyes. Sobrang lapit ng mukha namin sa isa't isa. With millisecond passed, I was getting drown by his gaze and found myself leaning more closer as I looked at him from his eyes down to his lips.