Pursuing from the Shore (Sun Rays #2)

Chapter 4

You Give Love a Bad Name by Bon Jovi

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I'm not writing about him, okay?

Anyway, at first, I was nervous. It's been a while since I last performed with my electric guitar. I guess I've gotten a little too settled in my comfort zone—borderline stuck, actually.

Pero kahit papaano, nagagawa ko na siya ngayon. Not bad for someone who almost talked herself out of it five times before stepping in.

Also, ex-crush ≠ still having feelings. Let's be clear about that. It was a phase. A very unnecessary phase.

But hypothetically speaking, purely hypothetical, what if you still kind of like them?

And then there's him. Siren-eyes. Out here asking me for advice about his crush who likes someone else, tapos tatawagin pa akong "dictator." The audacity. Ako na nga tumulong, ako pa may title.

I'm still not writing about him.

— aredgate

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Chapter 4

"Binlock mo pala ako. Nakakatampo ka," Davin brought out, he seemed upset.

Nalukot ang noo ko. I remembered I blocked him earlier when I was in the cafeteria.

Since I owe him for this day, I took my phone out from my skirt's pocket. Binuksan ko 'yon at saka siya in-unblock. I showed him the phone screen as proof.

"Okay na?"

"Bakit mo kasi ako binlock?" he started again.

"Because I can?" I almost rolled my eyes.

Natawa lang siya kaya pinagpatuloy na namin ang paglalakad. At dahil magkaparehong oras ang Caelus at Kanluran, napagpasyahan ko na kung anong unang band ang madadaanan namin, doon na lang ako.

I feel like I'm lost in my own life, just going with whatever comes my way. Why complicate things, anyway? As an introvert easily drained by my surroundings, I find comfort within simple thoughts. I just want to avoid dragging out my decisions and avoid complicated things.

"Dito na tayo," puna ni Davin kaya ako lumingon sa pinto.

There was a posted paper beside it at nakita kong Caelus ang nandito. I guess, dito na talaga ako.

"Pasok ka na. For sure kaunti pa lang kayo r'yan dahil maaga pa."

Napalunok ako bigla. My introverted ass is kicking me up at the moment. I then adjusted my electric guitar slung over my shoulder before heaving a deep breath. Namamawis na ang mga palad ko. Ano ba 'to?! Hindi pa nga nagsisimula, na-te-tense na ako?!

"Oh, kalma," biglang kanta ni Davin.

I quickly gave him a sharp look dahil mukhang nagsisimula na naman siyang mang-asar.

"I'm going inside now. And... thank you for today." Tipid ko siyang nginitian.

I just hoped he could feel the sincerity behind my awkward smile. Smiling at people wasn't something I did often. I never really knew how. But somehow, I managed to smile at him like that. O baka nahawa lang talaga ako sa kanya? With that face so perfectly balanced, and a smile that could easily disarm anyone, it was hard not to.

"For today pala, ha. Ibig sabihin may susunod pa?" Tumataas-taas ang kilay niya habang mapaglarong nakangiti sa akin.

"You wish, Davin." I slightly rolled my eyes.