Pursuing from the Shore (Sun Rays #2)

Chapter 3

Entry: Redler's Archive

How do you even start a day with low cortisol?

Because clearly, I missed that step. I've never felt this kind of pressure before. Feelings fade away, right, Redler?

Pero no'ng nakita mo 'yong ex-crush mo, biglang nag-restart lahat.

And just like that, a decision was made: I'm joining. Not out of passion, not out of talent—purely to release whatever this pressure is that's been sitting on my chest all morning.

Also, bwisit ka, Renz! Ninakaw mo na nga wallet ko, tapos ako pa sisisihin mo kapag hindi tayo nagkasabay umuwi? The audacity is actually impressive.

Anyway, yes. There was this one day I unconsciously decided to join a band. Si Rio kasi, tanong nang tanong, pumayag na tuloy ako.

As for the one who ended up coming with me to sign up... that siren-eyed guy!

And no, I'm not writing about him again.

— aredgate

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Chapter 3

Being shy sometimes feels like a curse. You get opportunities, but you're too hesitant to take the risk—and in the end, they just slip away.

Siguro may part din sa akin na dapat sisihin, pero I didn't exactly choose to be like this.

If I make a clear decision, does that mean I'll finally have a clear path too? Pero kung hindi, will I always just... get lost?

And yet, there's a strange comfort in the thought that someone is willing to go with you, kahit kaunti lang.

That someone will be there to take that first step with you, even when you're not ready to take it alone.

"Teka, anong banda ba ang sasalihan mo?" tanong sa akin ni Davin nang makalabas kami mula sa building ng STEM.

"Kahit saan. As long as ther signing up list is open."

I roam my gaze around the field. All of the students seemed to be very busy today.

Davin and I continued to walk across the pathways shaded by the umbrella trees to avoid being overheated by the sun. Our footsteps were a bit slow because I'm also looking for Rio.

Since kakilala ko naman siya, edi doon na ako magpalista muna sa banda. At isa pa, inimbitahan niya rin naman ako so it wouldn't hurt to try it again.

But now, I still couldn't believe that I would actually sign up to join a band. Well, there's nothing wrong with giving it another shot, right? Let's just see how it turns out. A part of me wants to back out already.

I just hope I won't end up regretting this decision.

Since Davin was the one who prompted me to do it, all I know is that he's the one to blame for this. Siya naman talaga. Why am I even still dragging him along with me? Now he's caught up in all this, too.

For all I know, he probably has things to do, and I might have already taken up his time.

Should I just tell him not to come with me anymore?

Bukod sa mambwisit, ano pa kaya ang hilig niyang gawin?

"Red! Bruha ka!"

Mabilis akong lumingon kay Edorina na nagmamadaling lumapit sa akin. She was holding a bottle of Sting on her left hand, and then a piece of empanada on her right hand.