oh adeline

black & white.

hayes got in my car, tossing his phone at me.

i looked at it, seeing the instagram post from the nhl.

its them announcing that ill be the nhl artist.

"why are you showing me this?"

"why the fuck do you think im showing you?"

"woah, whats wrong?"

"you're leaving and your names adeline! you fucking liar!"

i blinked a couple times, is this real?

am i dreaming?

"hayes, im confused can you-"

"you lied to me...adeline!" hayes said.

"i didnt lie, hayes. i didn't, adelines my legal name but ive gone my sunny my whole life."

"you did! you lied to me!"

"hayes, its not a big deal. you're blowing this so out of proportion. its a name."

"you're fucking leaving me and you said you wouldn't!" he spat.

"are you not happy for me?" my voice cracked.

"not really." he laughed.

"get out of my car hayes."

he smirked and laughed again.

"nothing about this is funny hayes!"

"really cause it hilarious to me." he said.

"get out hayes, were done." i said, wiping my tears. "my dad was right."

"he was right about what? his daughter being obese so he has to make sure no one says anything about it because it'll hurt her feelings. go eat a fucking salad...actually skip a meal or two."

he got out of my car and slammed the door shut.

my world went from colors to black & white.

i drove home without putting my seatbelt on, speeding the whole way too.

i parked and went inside, immediately wanting to go to my room and cry for the next hour.

"sunny?" my mom said.

i walked past her and up the stairs.

"ryan, sunnys crying and she-" was all i heard before i heard his footsteps.

my dad didn't need to hear the rest of my mom's sentence, my dad heard my name and crying in the same sentence and ran for me.

"sunny, what happened?" he said, pulling me into a hug.

"hayes."

i sobbed into his chest.

"what did he do to you?"

he held me by my shoulders and looked over my body.

"he called me a liar and obese."

my dad looked at my mom for a second before looking back at me.

"why?"

"he doesn't want us to be apart. i told him i wasn't leaving and then i told him about the artist position i got and he flipped out. we weren't together i swear. said i lied about my name and me leaving so he called me obese and told me to skip a few meals."

my dad hugged me tightly. "sunny, you're perfect the way you are."

"you just have to say that because your my dad." i cried.

"sunny, we mean it with our whole hearts." my mom said.

"why would he say that?"

"because boys are stupid." my mom said, getting a smile from me for a second.

"i loved him." i said.

i love him, yet im afraid he'll never loved me.

this was a one sided relationship.

i was picked up and placed on the kitchen counter.

i wiped my eyes with the back of my hand.

"im so sorry dad, i should of listened."

"im not disappointed in you sunny, you followed the agreement and sunny, you did everything right."

"he never noticed my eyes." i said.

one blue eye & one green/brown eye.

my most unique feature.

thats what most people say when they meet me is how cool my different colored eyes are.

"he never saw that your eyes are different colors?" my mom asked.

i shook my head.

"i wasted my time, i wasted his time and i wasted yalls time. im so sorry." i apologized.

"sunny ive got a feeling he just wanted the extra playing time, the extra help, the extra recommendations to his next move and i can assure you he won't be getting that."

"i feel so bad, hes your best player."

"i dont just teach hockey, i teach life. their parents send them here knowing that i will continue to parent & teach their sons. unfortunately for hayes, this will be a life lesson." he said.

-

i woke up from a nap and went to my dads office, he was on the phone, and im not supposed to be in there during his working hours but i went in anyway.

he nodded towards the seat, welcoming me in.

i played on my phone, waiting for him to be finished.

he finally hung up and i looked at him.

"he's suspended a few games and is getting traded."

"im sorry."

"its okay sunny."

"he said i lied to him about my name." i stated.

"im sorry?"

"he asked about my name a couple times, talking about how unique it was. when i posted about the nhl artist, i posted a picture of my sighed contract and i had to sign my legal name to he found out it was adeline." i explained.

"i had high hopes for him, unfortunately they sank like a capsized ship." he chuckled, making me smiled.

"theres that smile."

i checked my notifications.

hayes: sunny please can we talk

hayes: sunny please baby

hayes: im getting fucking traded and its all your fault

i blocked his number, but kept him on instagram.

i want him to miss me.

i want him to know what he could of had.