ʜᴇʀ sᴇᴄʀᴇᴛ ᴀᴅᴍɪʀᴇʀ +15

Confusing situations.

The feeling of luca's chin pressed against my shoulder her hair resting on my face I smiled at her trying to stay comfortable.

"Luca baby," smirks at the teasing nickname turning and kissing her forehead gently, "your a little too short for that" rubs my hand against her cheek. Her cheeks tinted to a shade of pink.

I handed her the plate I made for her and smiled softly as I watched her walk away to the kitchen table. I admired her walk the way her body swayed side to side, grabbing the plate and following right behind her.

She placed her plate on the table and sat down, I looked and tilted my head sitting across from her, I looked into her eyes and then looked at my plate of food, sniffling slightly from the tears I shed earlier. She kicked my leg gently, she shot me a quick smile which instantly made me feel like I won the fucking lottery.

I could feel my cheeks turn Scarlett red and I covered my mouth nervous from her small gesture. I won't lie I couldn't stop thinking about if she was thinking about claire, I mean obviously she was that's her girlfriend. Of course she's thinking about her right.? My heart sank from the thought and I could tell by the puzzled look on her face, that my expression changed.

"What's wrong pretty girl.?" Her soft tone expressing that she genuinely wants to know, I felt my frown fade into a smile and I shook it off. "Nothing I'm okay" I replied trying to seem as okay as I could possibly ever be. From the confused look on her face I could tell she wasn't buying it. I picked up a scoop full of rice and gently took a bite, chewing it slowly.

She nodded and ate her food as did I, we stayed silent until she got up from the table and put her plate in the dishwasher, soon after I followed her exact same steps. "Can I use your shower?" Her question broke our silence, it made me snap out of my dozed thoughts and I nodded relentlessly. "Oh yeah fuck of course you can" I laughed nervously as she walked away to the bathroom, I took her sweater and phone up to my room placing it on my bed.

I heard the water from the shower hit the tub and smiled when the door closed I took off my dress and put on a pair of black gym shorts that wrapped around my thighs, I stayed in my bra stretching my arms, I looked in the mirror taking out my hair so it down by my sides.

A phone buzzed and I picked up forgetting I was home alone I turned the phone on, I looked at the message and my smile faded immediately. "I love you- from amy" is what the notification read. I quickly put down the phone and walked back to the mirror and looked at my reflection. I dozed into the mirror  looking at my frown, the door opened behind me and I turned quickly and smiled at Luca so she didn't notice my frown.

I admired her body in a towel and looked her up and down feeling my cheeks turn a faint pink, as the heated up. I quickly stood up cupping her face and kisses her gently with a small grin, I bent over grabbing her a pair of pajamas from my bottom drawer, when I stood up and turned around I could see her eyes gaze my body, she looked me up and down and I blushed handing her the clothes and turning around putting on a t-shirt 3 sizes to big for me. I slid my bra straps down my arms and pulling my bra out of the shirt I was wearing.

"I could've watched that" she grabbed my waist and kisses my neck gently making goosebumps form along my skin. I smiled slightly and then remembered the text, the only thought was "who tf is amy" is what I wanted to say but I'll figure it out on my own.

I turned around placed a small kiss on your lips to avoid any questions then stretched my arms yawning slightly. I looked over at Luca and opened my blanket "get in bed". She smiled and climbed into bed I layed next to her wrapping the blanket over us, I turned and looked into her eyes. I felt her hand move down to mine and she intertwined our fingers. I felt her lips connect with the tip of my nose, she closed her eyes and drifted into a sleep.

Once she was asleep, I sat up and grabbed my phone pressing the power button and immediately opening up Instagram, I went to luca's account and scrolled until I found an "amy". There was one girl, she had black long hair and bangs her skin was tinted, "boyfriendsfav" the user read I nodded my head and then scrolled through her account, she was pretty. Better then me atleast, why is Luca hanging around someone like me if there's this girl texting her "I love you".

I went to Luca's highlight the first one I saw was a picture of them close, SUPER close. It was them what looked like in the shower it was only there lips and her back pressed against Luca's chest, I could tell their chests were bare. I put my phone down and felt tears run down my face, I layed down turning my back towards Luca and felt tears stream down to my pillow.

Why am I always fucking crying.

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