ʜᴇʀ sᴇᴄʀᴇᴛ ᴀᴅᴍɪʀᴇʀ +15

Relief

Authors note- this will be the one and ONLYA chapter that involves me and emmi.
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I didn't feel comfort I'm her touch, not like Luca. Luca was the person that I wanted to be with right now, emmi kissed my cheek and I nodded kinda pushing her off me, I took a plate and started to plate the cookies. "Cookie?" I asked her handing the plate she grabbed one and took a bite. "What if we dated?" She asked me throwing me back slightly.

I didn't want too but I needed to comfort her, I use to have a crush on her maybe a little part of me still does, but I honestly didn't care about her right now. I just wanted Luca and it felt like I couldn't have her, but I didn't want to take her away from her family that she was building with someone else.

I nodded and whispered "sure I guess." I walked over to my couch and collapsed looking at the ceiling why? I wanted to be with Luca but obviously the universe fucking hates me.

Don't get me wrong emmi, is an amazing person but she's not my amazing person. My heart belongs with Luca, I felt my heart honestly breaking just thinking about Luca, why couldn't she be with me. Maybe I let that picture get the best of my mind.

I shook my head and felt emmis hands run down my body from behind and u pushed her off of me, "your drunk emmi" I replied to her gesture laying her onto the couch, I pulled a blanket over her and shook my head. She's just a friend I can only see her as a friend, no matter how she felt about me I don't feel the same about her.

I patted her head before walking up to my bedroom, I dreaded sending that text to Luca, I just wanted her I want her sleeping on my bed, I want her touching my chest. I whined and collapsed into bed keeping my face smothered into my pillow. In the morning I'm gonna tell emmi to leave, I don't want her to think she's my girlfriend, when my heart doesn't want her. When my soul is connected to someone else.

The next morning.

I woke up, emmi was humming while cooking good in my kitchen. I sat up looking around the room, I walked downstairs and looked over at the kitchen. She was making eggs, I hated the smell of eggs and the taste. I walked over to the kitchen and she tried to kiss my cheek and I pulled back not letting her lips touch my skin.

"Emmi we need to talk" hops onto the counter and I looked up into her eyes, she frowned and I shook my head, "no" she whispered and I nodded.

"Emmi I don't love you like that." I whispered looking at her she scoffed and grabbed her bag quickly storming out of my house. I grabbed the eggs that were in the pain and threw them into the garbage, I'm not eating eggs unless I feel like vomiting.

I walked back up to my room checking my phone to see if Luca texted me, I frowned seeing her seen. I just wanted her to text me, I honestly wanted to hold her and keep her close to me like I've always done.

I viewed her story and saw a picture of her and Owen close together they were practically holding hands, it honestly made everything in my heart break. I heard a knock at the door and hesitantly got up, I made my way down the stairs slowly and opened the door.

Luca pushed my shoulder and looked into my eyes she was crying, I let her hit my shoulders a few times before she collapsed into my arms. I held her close and kissed the top of her head gently, she let me and she rested her head into my chest keeping it close up pressed against mine.

I looked at her shoulder the sleeve was slightly hanging down, I saw a hickey and my lips frowned fast. Was that from claire or Owen. She stopped crying and walked over to my couch with my hand intertwined with hers.

Her eyes were puffy and she looked like she had been crying for hours, she looked at me and started to plead. "I'm so so sorry, I didn't want too I swear it." She awnsered and I was tooken back giving her a startled look.

"I slept with him" she finally got the words out and I felt my heart break but at the same time almost relieved that she came and told me. I grabbed her pulling her to my chest holding her close. I whispered against her hair and shook my head.

"Don't apologize," I said while brushing my hand down her body whispering "it happens things happen." I can't lie when I said my heart was honestly broken but I just wanted her. I kissed her lips softly and she looked up into my eyes her cheeks flustered up as she climbed into my lap straddling me. I put my hands on her waist and she leaned down kissing me hard and passionately.

"Take me." She whispered into my mouth as she was grinding her hims up against me to tease. I could never find myself hurting this girl, she was so perfect. I nodded my head and took of my shirt, she did the same.

I'll show her I want her.

                                                                  

Word count: 933

EWWW OKAY I MADE EMMI QUIXK AND OVER WITH NEXT CHAPTER.