Tangled Webs II: Normal For The Spider - An SVU fic

22.A new beginning

So here's another chapter for those interested.

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In the last two hours he had become a father again; Casey Alexandra Langan, though she had been tiny- 4lbs 5ozs and measured in at only 18 inches, she was a fighter. She'd screamed loud enough in the delivery room for everyone to know she had arrived. Big powerful cries, as big as she could, from the second her mother had pushed her into the world and they'd pulled her out.

They had been worried that she'd need oxygen and were worried about her heart among other things, but Trevor knew she'd be okay. From the second he saw her come out of Olivia he'd fallen in love and when he held her in his arms for that brief moment when he handed her to her mother, so much became clear to him and he knew that things had to change. Now as he sat in Olivia's room while she slept, him holding Casey who thankfully checked out just fine, he had a lot to think about.

"You gave us all a scare coming so early. I tried being strong for your mommy but I was so scared..but you're alright, you came through for us and I swear I'm gonna come through for you." The tears that were in his eyes spilled over.

"I'm done; the alcohol...I'm done!" He promised his newborn daughter. Seeing her born reminded him of a promise he made to Jamie and Drew when they came into the world and he knew that he couldn't keep going the way he had.

"Trevor..." Olivia murmured as she started to wake.

"I'm here baby." He said, putting the baby in her bassinette as he went over to Olivia and took her hand.

"Trevor...." She said to him as her eyes opened and began to focus coming into a more serious tone. "The baby...is she okay?"

"She's fine..."

"Why aren't you with her? ...you're not supposed to leave..."

"Baby...she's okay." He turned to pick Casey up from the bassinette and brought her to Olivia.

"She's okay?" She asked with tears in her eyes as Trevor placed the baby in her arms for the second time that day, only this time, she got longer than just a few seconds and the tears in her eyes quickly broke down to full fledged crying.

"Here's mommy." He said and sat back on the bed.

"Two whole months; I didn't know if she was really okay- I didn't know..." She said through her tears, her cradling the baby as Trevor looked on teary eyed. "She's alright..." The baby let out a cry.

"Shh, shhhh. It's okay." She put the tip of her pinky in the baby's mouth to soothe her. "I tried to stay awake while I was waiting to hear but I was so exhausted." She said looking down at the baby.

"You know, I remember the day the twins were born and I knew that I could not love you more than I did in that moment but I do. You've been through so much..." The tears began to fall from his eyes again. "Liv; I'm so sorry."

"I don't...wanna talk about it, I don't...Casey's here, and she's healthy." The baby started to fuss again and she began undoing her gown. "I don't want to think about him and what he did to me. I just want to enjoy today, okay. Please, let's just enjoy today." She said with tears in her eyes.

"I'm sorry." He kissed the top of her head as she tried to get the baby to latch on. Looking at the faint traces of the bite marks that were on her breasts, she quickly blanked them out and focused on her daughter who was having trouble latching on.

"You want me to get the nurse to help?"

"No, I got it." After she tried a different position, the baby finally got it and latched on to her breast sucking hungrily. Olivia flinched as she tried to get settled.

"You're in pain..."

"I can handle it."

"Honey please, let me call the nurse."

"Trevor please don't." She grabbed his hand and kissed it. "I promise, it doesn't hurt so bad."

"You're doing a lot better than you were after the twins were born."

"Baby the twins were eight lbs, each. I went through twenty one hours of labor and Jamie got stuck on the way out. I promise, if the pain gets worse you can call the nurse, but right now how about you call the kids and let me talk to them."

"Yes ma'am!" He said and kissed her sweetly on the lips.

More to come, a much longer chapter next time. Reviews are love.