Tangled Webs II: Normal For The Spider - An SVU fic

31.Redux

Okay, sorry about the wait. I couldn't satisfy everyone so I satisfied myself. It's no longer rushed and I think it's fitting. Dick Wolf owns, thanks for reading and enjoy!

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He stood outside the delivery room waiting. He should be pacing; at least that's what they do in movies but the energy in him is just so static that all he can do is stand still, wait and pray.

He remembered the way she looked at him just before her eyes closed; like he was the one who held her fate. Forget that she was surrounded by nurses and doctors, she kept her eyes on him, looked to him like he could fix everything...

The baby

Were her last words to him. The baby. After everything she'd been through, even voicing her fears about being able to provide for this child, when it was all said and done, she'd thought only of her; they had to save her and if there was a god in heaven his wife would be spared too.

Suddenly the doors opened and out stepped the nurse. Trevor wasted no time in rushing over to her, his heart beating a million miles a minute and his stomach in knots.

"Mr. Langan..."

"...tell me they're okay." He said it so small with so much fear as he looked at the nurse. Was it a question or statement? There were tears in his eyes that he tried damn hard not to cry but they rolled down his cheeks of their own volition.

"We got the baby out in time and she seems perfectly healthy." At hearing this he broke and began sobbing uncontrollably. "Congratulations, you have a 7lb 4oz baby girl!"

He couldn't stand. Leaning against the wall until he composed himself, he cried it out before he straightened up enough to talk.

"She's okay?"

"Beyond okay, and loud! The pediatrician is checking her out but she looks and sounds good so far." Trevor stood there nodding as his tears flowed.

"And my wife?" He asked, making the nurse suddenly grow quiet. "Sharon; my wife?"

"The doctor is still working on her"

"What does that mean?!"

"In addition to the placental rupture...she's hemorrhaging. I'm sorry but we're doing everything we can!" Those words hit Trevor's ears like a muffled echo and he closed his eyes as they reverberated. The nurse stood for a moment and put her hand on his shoulder.

"Why don't you go down to the nursery and see your baby, she could use somebody to hold her."

The baby; their baby.

He wiped his eyes and turned back around to the nurse but before he could speak...

"I promise, we'll come get you as soon as we know...go, welcome your daughter." She smiled before she turned to leave.

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6 years ago...

"While you're forgetting me, you can forget your baby too!" she screamed.

"I dare you to try to keep me away from what's mine!" he threatened

"What 'was' yours...you're a piece of shit and I don't want any part of you!"

"I'm a piece of shit? Tell me something, Duck Dynasty does you-know-who know that I've been fucking the trailer park outta you for the last five months?"

Now that the vomiting had subsided, she sat down at her small table smoking her fourth cigarette in the chair she sat in, legs curled to her chest. She thought of the first and only time she had been pregnant; a baby she didn't really see herself having but one that she loved on some level and she thought of the trauma she went though because of it.