Tangled Webs II: Normal For The Spider - An SVU fic

29.Your love...

Chapter 29 already. This one is a much happier chapter for Olivia and I hope you all like it. Dick Wolf owns, enjoy!

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It had been two weeks since Olivia and Trevor moved their family back home and while it hadn't been easy for Olivia, she was determined to make it work, therefore he was determined, though it was hard to be there for her and give her the support she needed.

Therapy hadn't been working too great for the last month since Olivia didn't want to be there and only went because Trevor wanted her to; she didn't open up to Dr. Shields, just sat there until enough time would pass where the doctor would let her go home. She wasn't ready to share with anyone that she'd been raped, didn't want to deal with the stares; she didn't want the pity so instead of allowing herself help she would shut down at home until it all became too much, usually a day or two and then she'd break down and thankfully Trevor would be there to catch her.

Now that they were back home there was other stuff to deal with. In addition to shutting down and breaking apart, she refused to use the front stairs for any reason; always opting instead to go for the back stairs. If she had to go out it would be through the back door or either the garage entry through the hall. She didn't dare enter the living room or the main foyer, it was like she had cut them off in her mind and she was never remiss to steer clear of them and while her breakdowns had become less of an occurrence, it was still hard for Trevor to see her struggling when she was trying so hard to be strong for herself and the children.

"Trevor..." she called to him as she lay one night wrapped in his arms.

"Yeah babe?"

"Please don't give up on me!" She said in tears. She was aware of all her problems and she wanted him to know that she knew and she just needed time to get through them, but most of all she needed him. He held her, letting her cry for a long time until again, she exhausted herself and fell asleep in his arms.

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The next day after Trevor had taken the children to school and come back, Noah was still asleep in his nursery, he had been running a fever due to teething so they had let him sleep after Trevor woke him to give him Motrin and some breakfast. After checking on him he went into their bedroom and was surprised when he saw Olivia; she sat looking through a photo album that he immediately recognised as Chloe's baby book. He hadn't seen it in a long time and it immediately brought back fond memories and then the hurt came. He and Olivia never quite got over losing her but he wondered why today of all days... He got his answer the minute she saw him standing there.

"Noah's fine; I just checked him." she said.

"You're up!" He said as he came around to the chaise and kissed her.

"She was kicking and I couldn't..." She said as she touched her belly through her nightgown. "Plus I had to pee!" She smiled wanly.

"Can I sit with you?" He asked. She looked up at him and nodded. He eagerly took a seat beside her on the chaise. "Chloe's book..."

"Her birthday is coming soon..."

"She would've been..."

"Six years old." She said sadly; longingly. Neither of them had ever given up missing her. "You know, I realized that since I found out..."

"With all that's happened, we never got the chance." He finished. She paused and looked down, smiling at how he knew her thoughts.

"I've thought about it...and I understand now that you were doing it to protect me."

"I swear to you, that was my only intent; I never meant to lie to you, I never meant to cause you pain...but that night I did and I'm so sorry."

"I know that now and I hate that I couldn't forgive you then... I'm sorry that I wasn't able to work it out when I found out, If I had..."